erisedghost
You did what's best for you! I'm literally struggling right now to end a toxic friendship and it's amazing that you made that choice for yourself
Thank you :) It wasn’t 100% my own choice as there was an incident (that I will outline in as little detail as possible since I still have some seriously bad emotions involving it) that made me realize things. I made a human mistake that caused us to leave our college later than usual and “make her late for work” (the route she takes home from the college is probably the longest of all possible routes. However, we still arrived home I think forty minutes before she started and her job is maybe ten minutes walking from her house, obviously a lot less in a car). However, even after I apologized multiple times she still treated me like the spawn of Satan to the point that I seriously just wanted her to drop me off at a gas station in another town and have me have to find a way home.
By the time we got home I was a complete wreck, shaking and bawling to the point that I couldn’t even speak properly to tell my dad what had happened.
There were a few more things that happened with it, but I’m actually feeling sick and tearing up just typing this out (that’s how bad it was) so it was more an act of survival than an act of bravery (no my life probably wasn’t in danger, but mental survival?).
However, I do hope you manage to get out of your bad friendship before it makes you feel how I felt in that week because that was the worst I’ve ever felt in my life, and the only person I’d possibly wish it on is her just so she understand that her inconsiderate outbursts actually hurt people badly in hopes that it would make her a much kinder person.
