#epunawrites

I’m in a dangerous place. The things that pull me back Have no merit here. I’ve lost the will Like there’s no inheritance. I’ve left myself  In the darkest of rooms, With the darkest of thoughts; Rifling through my mind For a ray of light, But the only light that enters Is through the cracks Of the door I have shut. And only when my eyes have adjusted Can I see it. I wait here Among the shields that hang; Wait for a movement, An answer, Wait for the strength To bask in the light. Because the darkness feels like home. In the comfort of the emptiness, As I lay on the floor  Of my walk-in closet.

In my mind I remember the way - 2 a place Ive nvr been. So in reality its no wonder I feel lost in the wind. Ive been tryin2 recall a dream I had… from another life. So present life dreams of this dream every nite. N I wish this memory hadnt endured re-incarnation. My soul is the train and these lives are jus stations. Hopin one day on the platform u’ll b waitin. Is ur ticket for this lifetime? I m still debatin

Grateful. Blessed. Stressed. Anxious. Guilty. Remorseful. Entitled. Spiteful. Forgiving. Passive. Accepting. Aggressive. Determined. Loved. Wishful. Creative. Moved. Inspired. Decided. Excited. Lustfull. Horny. Moody. Lighthearted. Overwhelmed. Engrossed. Wanted. Here.

The seasons are changing And all your leaves are falling. Now I can see how deep your woods really are. The Illusion of Summer.

I want dinner and the movies. Midnight fruit snacks x Netflix. Rolling up under the covers while we play footsie. Kisses at the most random of times. Hugs from behind. Saturday afternoons spent at museums. Monday nights spent with take out. Weekend getaways, either in bed or somewhere outta the city. I want laughter, and genuine ‘can’t help it’ smiles. I want a scent so familiar, if anything is remotely like it I get lost in the thought of you. I want spare keys, and packed lunches. Dedicated dresser drawers with cute contact paper. I want what you want on my grocery list, and special request for what to cook. I wanna see you happy, and I wanna see me wit you. Hopefully those two are connected.