#entry 50

Have I figured out my enemy

Is it my subconscious that is blocking everything from me

Am I losing myself because of my brain?

(OC: Date [06-09-2016] Day[Tuesday])

Dear diary…

The weeks rest is over. I packed what I needed and made my way down to the city from the tower. There I regrouped with the others and made our way to the docks. However there was no boat ride. Instead it was the Magister waiting to teleport us all. We exchanged a quick word about asking the other not to die before I stepped through the portal. I did mean it when I asked him not to die. And I trust so did he.

We had a few moments to wonder the streets of Dalaran whilst the shade cleared up a few things. A fascinating place. I place I wish I had more time to explore. Though duty called and we made our way to one of the locations in the north eastern part of the broken isles. We moved our supplies and set up base at a small hut on top of a hill. The area itself was dull and gloomy with less than desirable birds in the sky. Me and Velinth were tasked with negotiating with the locals for use of their crop. Me managed to secure a deal where if we kill the birds in the sky over their village, we can use their fields.

After this I started to assist Grizzlow in construction. What he needed me to do was simple enough. We were then both called over to the Magister and the Shade. Sylvarys’s hair was blond! I wonder what caused him to change. Anyway. The next thing he told me was I was no longer overseer. And he asked me how that made me feel. I thought I had just lost my rank. At the time so much disappointment filled me. I told him this. That I was disappointed. Though I did wonder what I did. So I asked. As it turns out, my rank was taken so I could be issued with the rank council. I think this surprised me more than what I thought was a demotion. Why he didn’t just say I was being promoted is beyond me. Maybe he just likes toying with me like he did.

Council. Answering only to the Magister and the Shade. Also giving my own opinion to the shade and her actions and helping to decide the fate of the warband. I wouldn’t have thought I was ready for such a task, but I will give it my all. Sylvarys believes in me and has put trust in me to do the job. So I will. He has never let me down, so I will return the favor. Also with lives on the line, I cannot fail. But as I told Taryane, everybody makes mistakes. I just hope that when I make mine, it does not result in the loss of life.

After Ara’ni addressed the changes to the warband, I made my way outside with some food. I spotted Taryane by one of the cliffs and walked over. I was about to eat until I wondered if Taryane had had a chance to eat. If not I would have offered her mine and gone for more. But she thought it was for her anyway so there was no need. She took it and I got more for myself. We then spoke for a while about the changes and what has been happening. Taryane succeeded on her mission to find the hunter the Magister asked her to find. Also it seems the hunter Varo will no longer be with us. Even if he did protect Taryane and save the Magister, it is still a relief to see him gone. I fear than even if I attempt to avoid him, he would still try to find me. This would cause conflict as Sylvarys comes to my aid. I appreciate his offer and was happy to see him watch over me. But I don’t want to see him getting hurt for me. But then. I would for him. This seems to be something to just live with. If I would jump to his aid in risk of injury, it would be unfair to say he shouldn’t.

The topic of me being reliant of the Magister came up. Obviously I look to him for guidance, but eventually I want to learn all of his guidance and stand on my own. I don’t want to be constantly relying on others for knowing what to do. I am not in a position where I can do that. I must learn what I can when his advice is needed. I am also sure that I would bore Sylvarys by being so needy all the time. And I am not needy. I just accept help when I need it to do what needs to be done. We all start reliant on another before we learn what we can and stand by them. One day I will be an excellent leader and I will stand next to him guiding those bellow us.

Eventually Taryane tired and left to rest. I found Graularr and approached him. He seemed to be acting odd. I brought it up and he just seemed to meet me with rudeness. In the end I figured out he had consumes alcohol so I started to find out how much and then warn him of its uses and his duty. But he said it was a onetime thing. We spoke about the war chief and a little about the scourge before he also retired to rest. I sit here now fighting with the pages as I write and the wind blows by. Ignoring the screeches of those awful birds, the surroundings seem quite relaxing. The waves of the coast hitting the rocks and the ocean breeze washing over me. It’s not eversong woods but it wasn’t bad. Well… it was awful. I just have to close my eyes to make all that go away. But for now I should rest. Tomorrow I need to be focused on my new tasks and what lies ahead.

 Yours faithfully

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