#eni posts

"oh but eni. you dont even front super often so surely it would go unused for long periods of time"

SHHHHHHUT UP <3

I'm going to reblog something here tomorrow, and I feel the need to explain it first in case anyone missed all of the discussion about it.

So, you know my Detective Nigma doodles? There's a long story behind those lil things, and for some reason my brain got hyper focused on the whole concept and wouldn't stop creating this long over elaborate story with it. I've complained about it frequently on this blog, and some awesome followers thought it'd be cool if I did something with it (y'know, rather than constantly trying to fight it off)

So a writing project was started to do just that! That is also a long story, but the short version is I found an awesome co-writer and we've written and posted the first Season, which basically means the first book.

its me im she. heyo 👋

Hi! It's not going to be for a while, but maybe not as long as it was for Season 1. I just went and looked at what we have so far, and it's about 55% finished (which, wow, holy shit. That's not just the Mid-Season finale, that's the whole dang Season).

🍀 ❄️ 🥝 🪷 🌷 💐 for the ask game?

oh yay!!!!

🍀 "how do u communicate with ur headmates?"

internal communication is something that we struggle with, a lot of the time its feelings over words. or if it's a conversation with words, a lot of the time they aren't put into full sentences and the headmates are just throwing general thoughts at eachother. we do also use chats like discord or simply plural's chat feature sometimes as well. occasionally it can help to be able to fully write down our thoughts and sometimes just sending vague feelings back and forth is enough, mostly just depends on who's talking i think

- Violet🪻🪽

❄️ "how often do ur hosts/fronting patterns change?"

uhmmmm not sure? honestly it depends on how long something has to be going on for to be considered a new fronting pattern. Like once it was basically only me, Raine, and Holly in fronting rotation for like threeish days, does that count?

-Eni🍬🔪

🥝 "how often do u switch?"

i wanna sayyyy at least once or twice a day? dunno if thats considered quick or slow switching times. its also not always true, sometimes one of us will be in front for days (other headmates may join them in front temporarily but they dont leave for a while) but thats pretty rare

-Eni🍬🔪

🪷 "do you co-front with other alters often? is co-fronting easy or difficult?"

i dont believe we do it often, but it's not quite a rare occurance either. as you can tell right now me and Eni are fronting together. i wouldn't say that it's difficult, but prehaps other members experiences are different

- Violet🪻🪽

🌷 "how long does it take for u to switch?"

usually we each get a couple hours in front at least. obviously times very and all but i dint think any of us have ever been in front for like less than an hour

-Eni🍬🔪

💐 "do u have any hosts? co-hosts?"

we consider Peri our host, and we're not entirely sure on co-host but if we do have one it would lkely be Raine, seeing as they're usually there if Peri isn't

- Violet🪻🪽

-do you feel like your personalities are wildly different or do you feel like you’re mostly cohesive? Or something in between? Idk explain it for this curious bug.

-firefly is masc, most of the rest of yall are fem? How do you physically represent all of yourselves? Do you feel different dysphoria when different people are fronting

-do you remember all that occurred when another person was fronting

-can yall communicate between each other? Or do yall just kinda know? Or not? What’s it like?

-can you stop fronting if you so choose? What about intentionally take over fronting?

-how does it effect day to day stuff?

again I’m sorry if I’ve accidentally been offensive I’m just curious. No hate. Also I’m curious to get to know all of yourselves more as I see your different posts and stuff. If you don’t wanna answer any of these no pressure either way.

Yay questions!!! :D

ehhhh idk. kinda just depends on who you're comparing, like, I'd say Firefly and Raine are pretty similar, but Pink and Holly are very different, ya know? We do all feel different enough to uuuusually have at least a bit of an idea of who we are at the moment though.

oooo this one's interesting!! Firefly is the only mainly masc one, everyone else is either fem or kinda mismatch vibes like me and Raine. Majority of us are nb not women though (i personally consider myself both)

So, yes we do all feel different ways we like, want to change the body when different people are fronting, some of us want long hair and some want a more masculine body and some want a larger chest, while some wish we had no chest at all. We're not really sure what we're gonna do with the body's appearance... I'm personally fine with basically whatever but I know a lot of the others care more, so that's a bit of an issue.

Actually the main thing we seem to have problems with isn't our body but our voice, no one really super likes how we sound, and it sometimes leads to some of us just avoiding talking entirely while fronting.

We don't really get amnesia, or at least not the total blackout that's typically expected. Usually it's either a thing where the person fronting remembers but don't think about it until someone else brings it up, or they remember it bit it doesn't feel like something they did, like if I think about stuff Lonnie or Holly did while fronting yesterday it feels like stuff they did, not stuff i did when i was them ya know??

Communication's a bit hard for us, we know some systems can fully talk just mentally and have conversations just like that, but we can't really... usually can only get a few sentances before the thoughts kinda just fade away and blur into eachother

We've found it's a lot easier to type it out and talk in chats like discord simply plural's chat feature. Helps us sort out our thoughts and properly comverse a bit better when we're writing it down

Intentional switches...... i mean we cant quite do that. but sometimes if we think about a headmate enough or start "giving" them the things they like (wearing their favorite clothes, putting on their favorite show, starting to do a hobby they like) we can "summon" them there, and eventually they may either take over or join in front. so i dont really know if that counts lol, it only works occasionally

oh plurality's weird in just day to day stuff, sometimes it feels like it barely makes a dofference to how we live and sometimes it feels like it changes everything. i dunno i dont ahve any good examples for either on mind :P