@enduringtiime [CONTINUED:]Ā ( PLAY ) playing with mineās hair
It was becoming second nature. The hiding, the loving, the needing. Gordon didnāt know how he could get his head around it. Heād had plenty of other partners where he wasnāt feel desperate to get them into a room alone.
But Fergus. Deputy PM Fucking Fergus. Now he was always on his mind, in a work and play basis.
Tonight, it was on a play basis.
Fergus had asked him to stay behind, as he had started to do so and they had started watching TV together with a drink or two.
So, starting to play with his hair felt usual, normal, something he would have done for any of his other lovers, a gentle ruffling through soft red curls under his rough fingertips.
He didnāt say anything, he was sure - if Fergus minded or not - he would be told otherwise.
It was a thought that bounced around somewhere in the back of Fergusās head that something had shifted between them.Ā
It was one thing to have an illicit, frankly very sexy, affair behind closed doors. It was another to just sit, watch TV and ... what was it they were doing exactly? Fergus wondered if it qualified as cuddling. He had certainly managed to sink lower and lower on the couch until he was rested cozily against Gordyās side. The otherās fingers had snuck into his hair soon after.Ā
Fergus didnāt mind. In fact, he relished the feeling, paying far more attention to it than the rerun of an episode of Have I Got News For You from 4 years ago. And still, his overactive mind couldnāt help but wonder what it all meant, what had changed.Ā
The fact that Gordon had almost died came to mind and it made him snuggled just that little bit closed to make sure he was still there.Ā
āItās getting long again, I should have it cut soon,ā he commented on his hair, a sentence far removed from everything going on in his head.Ā āMakes me nervous when it falls into my face like that.ā