#encounter 23

Ugh why do I fall for any person who gives me the smallest shred of attention?? Encounter 23 is everything I want in a boyfriend. He has good taste in music, he’s tall, cute, funny, and he wears patches and loves stick n pokes just like i do! The only problem is that he’s got his own stuff going on and doesn’t want to date. I don’t even think I’m ready to date again but the thought of him with anyone else just kills me. I’m acting defensive and mean and I know it’s pushing him away but I just can’t help it because I feel so strongly about him. Maybe it’s better if we end it now, save myself from the heartache later.. 

I’ve been sending a lot of time with encounter #23. I really like him but I don’t know how he feels about me. He’s not affectionate at all and that makes it super hard to gauge how he feels about me. I’m just way to vulnerable right now for uncertainty.