#empty plan

In the meantime, the older I am, the war just going harder and harder. I'm still thinking about my strategies, what I will gonna do, what's the plan, what's the action, can I verified that, etc. I was going to run the Last-Tune Red Protocol, I was thinking, that maybe all this time, they will understand, but the sign came in and give me the opposite result that I was hoping it before. The statistic is always right. I'm back to the Empty Plan, where I don't know how to do else, because my strategy before is already down. The statistic gave me the result, the same result over and over again everytime I try the same last protocol. No, it didn't work.

My plan next is trying to find and collect informations in this short time as many as I can. How to get proper diagnosis, how to meet the doctor, have information about this, and finally, get proper help. But I think, it's impossible things to do.

Everytime I look the video about "Does this makes my Asperger's big?", it's make me sad because how unlucky I am and always thought 'yeah u lucky because you have proper education system, etc everything is good, but have you look at me, us that struggle with this war by my own? we don't want this but God made us do have this.'