#emptines

monday

enter desolation

The day I miss you

Long live the sky and you beneath it.

I have felt lonely many times before.

But this was different, the void,

It looked like it was not meant to be filled.

I don't say that I will surely miss you tomorrow,

But I do miss you today.

Though the void will remain tomorrow too.

Maybe unscathed, may be rusted.

But once the coating is removed,

It will lionize the same emptiness as today.

The funny part is you don't even recognize me.

For you, I am just some person inflicting the pain.

For you, I am the object you should do your “karma” to.

For you, my pain is just another pain.

Over the years, I have felt this hole in my chest. I thought if I ignored it, faught it, kept it burried, it would go away.  Now, it consumes me. It has become all I can think about; all I can feel. The only emotions I can feel are anger, loneliness, and minor moment of joy. I have loss all intrest in things that I used to love and there is no modivation to fix it. I am tired of trying to fix things; tired of trying to fix myself. I am becoming this “hole”, this emptiness. 

Emptiness