#emmy rant

I am very intentional with the people in my life. I am open and honest and I have spent years (and still am) working on communication and being better at letting them know what I'm expecting of them and in what capacity I want them in my life. I tell them how much I love them I send good morning texts, I check in. I let them know I value them and the space they hold in my life. I don't think it's fair I'm always the one second guessing the value and space they have for me. I am tired and heartbroken at always finding myself being the odd one out. Never the best friend, never the favorite, but always the one willing to give with both hands and ending up with nothing.

And you know what I am fucking done. I am fucking fantastic, I am awesome and I have SO much to give, if you want to be in my life you better fucking show me because I am done being the only one reaching out and maintaining contact. I am tired of being consistently and systematically disappointed by people who say one thing and act in a completely different way. I DESERVE better, I deserve reciprocity and a minimum of respect.

call me vex or emmy (you may spell it however you’d like. i really don’t care. i get lots of spellings.) im 18.

i use they/them pronouns unless it is comedic to gender me otherwise. i will also accept she/her.

i draw! speaking of: no criticism unless you’re a dear friend of mine. thanks!

i have many interests, such as: books (classics and sci fi books that you’ve never heard of); red dead redemption 2; destiny 2; call of duty (modern warfare I-III); forensics and other morbidities; horror and various other things! don’t be afraid to ask, i promise i don’t bite.

auDHD (99.999999% positive).

my asks are open.

Each yarn ball was a dollar a bit expensive for yard sale yarn but definitely worth it. I met up with a lady who moved, she ran a yarn store. We would talk and crochet while her son and my little brother played baseball. (You can tell I have a color scheme)