#emmie grace

Do you know that feeling when it's late at night, and everyone in your house is asleep except for you. It's not that you're having trouble sleeping necessarily, just that you haven't had the chance to get to be till just now... You're eyes have makeup in them that didn't quite get washed out and you're finding comfort in the familiar warmth of the blankets on top of you... You're boyfriend is asleep because you sent him to bed before you were ready and you start to wonder what he might be dreaming of, and hope that it's of you. Is it selfish? I hope not.. I don't want to be selfish... But.. If you dream of someone all the time, doesn't it just seem right for them to dream of you too?

Do you know that feeling when you apologize to the girl you've hated most for the past few years? How you want to cry and you feel like shot as you say you're sorry in not so few words.. The way you resent yourself when she says "really? Awe, why??" so sweetly as a reply to your meek "you know I've really admired you.." Suddenly you realize you were wrong to hate her.. But right in hating yourself...

Do you know that feeling you get when everything is changing? When your dad's just lost his job and you're about to graduate high school.. You're ready to get out and leave but still wanna be a kid.. You wanna move out and live with your boyfriend but it's not acceptable and you can't understand why.. But it's okay because you're not ready to afford it yet anyways.

It's a really weird feeling.. Do you know it?