#emisaki

After that I was kind of in stunned amazement and then elsie was there too and lol she was busy talking so it was only after a while she kind of turned and boom! WE MET AND HUGGED ASDKJF;L. I met other OORers there too, even though I hadn't talked to them before THERE WAS A BOND INSTANTLY FORMED. So: unok, isabella and alfendi, you guys are absolutely amazing and beautiful and I'm so so so glad that we met asdfk;jasf *GLOMP*

We waited in the queue until 7pm and lol in that time we met A LOT OF STUFF HAPPENED. 

I swear to whatever luck goddess there is, nat is THE LUCKIEST PERSON I'VE EVER MET LIKE SHE'S THE FRIGGIN OOR MAGNET NOT EVEN JOKING. So debs and her went for a smoke AND TAKA TOMOYA AND RYOTA WENT FOR A SMOKE TOO so ryota recognised her and they took photos adkfja;kfl I'M REALLY HAPPY FOR YOU NAT OKAY STOP BEING SO GUILTY!! This CONTINUES TO HAPPEN THROUGHOUT OUR WAITING TIME because apparently EVERYWHERE nat goes there is a band member or rui somewhere it's not even funny hahahaha. 

But eventually hanging out with nat must have rubbed some luck off me because I got to somehow get past a security guard while toru, tomoya and ryota were taking a break outside the door. I felt super guilty interrupting their time but if this was the opportunity I was given, I felt like I was just going to take it. Elsie was with me too (for moral support! THANK YOU) so I was shaking so badly and my heart was pumping so hard I thought I was gonna faint but I told them the thing that I've always wanted to tell them: Thank you for saving my life. I really hope they understood because toru just nodded and said thank you and shook my hand and they all shook my hand and asdkl;fjafdj;laskfj I STILL FEEL THEIR HANDS ON MY HAND I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT HAPPENED. They signed my ticket too but like the idiot I am I let them sign on the purple side so harder to see OTL BUT STILL IT WAS SIGNED AND I GOT TO TELL THEM MY HEARTFELT FEELINGS. I wonder if it would have been better to say it in Japanese though :/ Irony that taka wasn't there but I really really am so thankful for whatever thing happened for me to have that moment with them. T.T

Teared up so badly when I headed back and saw the others and I just cried and cried and cried THANKS FOR LENDING ME YOUR SHOULDERS GUYS T.T It just meant so much to me and I'd finally said it and words can't even explain how much that moment means to me. 

We continued to spot the guys from afar and I was just really content, being there, queuing up with all these OORers who were as excited and touched by OOR as I was. 

After that I had to pass my extra tickets to shinumade's friend and tanya before we went in. When we went in, I made the decision to buy my merch first and lol I just found out I didn't get passed the wristbands that I had bought and I didn't buy an extra shirt for quincy T.T I'M SO SORRY FOR THAT. YOU CAN HAVE MY SHIRT OKAY. Its a lady's cut anyway so it'd look really bad on me haha. I WISH YOU WERE THERE WITH ME IT WOULD HAVE BEEN PERFECT WITH YOU THERE GEH *VIRTUAL DEATH CLING*

I managed to find nat and debs inside which was a big plus cuz I was afraid I'd be lost and couldn't find anyone :x And can I just say how amazingly kind nat is??? Seriously she was so concerned about me and I felt so bad cuz she kept an eye out for me all the time geh I was so funsized I felt like everyone was looming over me OTL OTL I felt really bad too cuz I was wondering if my bag stuffed full of merch was in the way of the person behind me but I felt a little thankful for it later cuz it gave me a little breathing space :x 

When it started EVERYONE SCREAMED AND IT WAS ABSOLUTE CHAOS. I really can't remember the setlist (always happens at concerts I swear) but RYOTA IN ALL HIS SHIRT ALLERGY GLORY WAS IN FRONT OF ME THE ENTIRE TIME AND THOSE ABS OMFG AND THOSE TATTOOS AND THAT FACE ANADF;LAKJDFA;SLKFDAJF I WAS REALLY SURPRISED I DIDN'T NOSEBLEED OKAY NOT EVEN KIDDING LIKE WTF DUDE WHY ARE YOU SO AMAZINGLY SCULPTED ASDLK;FAJ 

I was so happy to be able to see tomoya from the front cuz they elevated his drums and toru HUMPING HIS GUITAR OR STH I DON'T EVEN KNOW ITS LIKE SEX WITH HIS GUITAR OK and taka omg taka asjdfsa;klfdjasf;lkasdjfasf BASICALLY

The only thing I was kind of sad about was that I couldn't really hear taka's voice cuz the sound system wasn't loud enough on his part and everyone was singing so loudly so I spent a few moments in the concert just listening my best to his voice and its just basically heaven to me on cds/dvds and hearing it live was just unbelievable. He really is so talented. 

It was so fun headbanging to deeper deeper and that PPRRRRRRRROOOOOAAAAWWWWWWW at the beginnning was EVERYTHING I'd dreamed of. Even better was headbanging with everyone else and EVERYONE knew the lyrics to EVERYTHING it was just such a surreal experience. Following was nothing helps and the BASS THE DRUMS THE BEAT OMG IT LITERALLY WAS IN MY BONES THE ENTIRE TIME and it made me emotional too because its because of you, I'm standing here with you. 

Taka did the hyping up part for answer is near and we all knew it was coming and it just made it even better. Despite how much the song means to me, I didn't cry. Instead I remember thinking that, this song saved my life, this band saved my life and it gives me strength everytime. And I didn't cry but lift my head higher and jumped even more. 

C.H.A.O.S.M.Y.T.H. was next AKA NIAGRA FALLS on my face. Nat took my hand and debs took nat's hand and I basically started crying non-stop while singing. There was a girl next to me who was crying as well and her hand was just clutching her chest and before I knew it, I'd grabbed her hand as well to raise into the air and we just sang and cried the entire song. It was so touching and SO MUCH FEELS and I literally didn't stop crying the entire way. Here I was in an OOR concert with OORers from all over the world and holding hands and crying to C.H.A.O.S.M.Y.T.H. It was a dream come true. I'm so glad to have gone with you guys. It really is unlike any other experience. 

Let's take it someday was so hardcore, everyone was just jumping jumping jumping and headbanging but so fun omg. Jibun rock was as amazing and everyone did the NE WA!! and AWASENNO!! which made it even more amazing. This was compared to singapore last year where I had death glares for singing my heart out and basically singing all the lyrics lol. Here everyone just enjoyed themselves so thoroughly without a care in the world. This is our identity: ONE OK ROCKers and ONE OK ROCK music is our language. 

Clock strikes was next and even though the london OORers had given out these pamphlets of a heart shaped clock pointing at one o'clock I didn't manage to take it out of my bag cuz I forgot OTL instead I had drawn a cross on my hand before the concert so I just raised it up instead. This was another song that was so emotional and we just followed taka's singing. 

After this was the MC I think?? Lol unfortunately (or fortunately) the only I remember vividly is the pink underwear flying towards toru and he wore it on his head asdfjk;l. OTL THESE GUYS SERIOUSLY THEY SHOULD JUST TURN IT INTO THE PERVERTED TOUR OR STH. But all the guys got a shirt from one of the fans who designed them although I think security took toru's shirt away UPDATE IT WAS ISABELLA WHO DID THE SHIRTS AND THEY WERE REALLY CUTE

I kind of wished the audience would let taka sing be the light properly though, he looked really emotional and sad :/ following was re:make and no scared which were both SO HARDCORE ASDJFKL; SO MUCH HEADBANGING (my neck is still sore after 3 days OTL). 

Kanzen kankaku dreamer is of course a must in every show and this is always so much fun listening, let alone having in a live. Followed this was the beginning and of course this is the song that really really launched them towards having a world tour and I was so so proud of them at that moment. I think I started crying again??? I REALLY CAN'T REMEMBER IT WAS JUST A LOT OF TEARS FOR A SINGLE CONCERT OKAY

They did wherever you are as an encore and to be honest I just spent the entire song staring at taka because lol this is a wedding song and this is the guy who's ruined me for all other guys. His voice is amazing amazing amazing its just so amazing I really cannot describe it any other way. 

After the live nat saved me (again! she saved me so many times during the live omg O.O) with water at the bar hahaha and finally someone took a photo of her poster WHICH I'M REALLY HAPPY FOR HER ABOUT. And really this sums up the entire thing: 

Thank you for the inspiration.

Thank you for the dreams.

Thank you. 

This isn't just a thank you to ONE OK ROCK for their music or for, well, existing, but this is for a thank you to all the kazoku I've managed to meet through them. They are such beautiful people who have made me feel accepted for loving this band through every fibre of my body and soul and they understand so well what it means to love a band with all your heart. And it was like this never ending bond that we've created through this and I know we'll definitely meet again someday. 

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