@emilesmuseassembly asked: ❛ say you want me, and i’m yours. ❜ - / Casey subtle smut starters || accepting
Much as she'd sometimes like to, Alice can't spend all her time in Room 665. Duty still calls, and she has a few rolls of film to develop in the apartment darkroom. Zane would probably let her convert the hotel bathroom if she asked -- or would help her carve out some other space in the building -- but a little distance is for the best, she thinks. She needs some time to plan, to focus, without the filmmaker there as a welcome distraction. That and his room is a critical setpiece anyway, necessary for the progression of the loop. Alice can't be there for all of it, even if she knows how to hide behind the camera.
She taps her fingers against the elevator's handrail as it descends, the metal of her rings clinking against the metal of the rail. When it reaches the lobby she pushes off the wall and steps out, mind already working in a thousand different directions. It's not a far walk back home but she hopes it isn't raining -- somewhere in the course of the not-evening her hairtie had broken, and she hadn't brought a spare so now her hair hangs loose over her shoulders. It annoys her to get it wet because nothing ever really dries here, and she really should try to figure out an umbrella...
There's someone else in the lobby, leaning heavily against the unstaffed check-in desk. For a moment she's convinced it's Alan even though the silhouette is all wrong, but then he turns and it's Casey and she releases a breath she didn't mean to hold. He has one hand inside his jacket and she thinks he has a gun, then he's pressing on a wound, then-- he pulls out a flask and takes a swig. Even from a distance she can see his knuckles are bloodied, and he's looking at her with an expression she can't read.
"Casey?" Tentatively she steps closer, one hand rising automatically to the grip of her camera, her own weapon against the dark. She's never seen him here, in the hotel, but Alice knows that he comes by. Knows what he and Zane get up to because she knows just about everything that goes on in this place even if she pretends not to see it. A bitter thought in the back of her mind, then, that Zane's already got the next one lined up -- but she pushes it back. What he does when she isn't there is none of her business, and she'd be a hypocrite to act like she's got any kind of claim on him.
Casey stays leaning against the desk as she approaches, but his eyes roam up and down her frame. When she's close enough they land on her neck, where the camera strap slung over her shoulder is pulling her jacket a little towards her shoulder. Enough to reveal a purpling mark she can feel there, an imperfect impression of Zane's teeth. She stops, swallows thickly as though caught at something wrong.
Alice has tried, with mixed success, not to think about the reality of what she's been doing and who she's been doing it with. She's been alone for thirteen years, and there were certainly people before Zane, and it's impossible to say where her relationship with Alan stands even now. They love each other -- they must, to still be here. But what does that mean, in practical terms? Zane feels like a loophole, a conveniently allowable transgression in the face of everything else going on. Casey's eyes on her turn her stomach, though. Something like shame twists in her gut, and she grits her teeth against it.
"Casey, why are you--"
Say you want me, and I'm yours.
He meets her eyes, then. His are watery and bloodshot but there's no accusation in them. Just a pleading edge. Like he's asking her to make a better choice, offering himself as a lifeline. She's always wondered how he sees her. If she's more of a femme fatale or a damsel in distress in his narrative, if he even understands who she is and why she's here. Her mouth feels dry, suddenly, and she sinks her teeth into the meat of her cheek until she tastes copper. As though the blood might unstick the words from her throat.
"That's not..." He takes another pull from the flask, putting his beaten knuckles in her line of sight, without taking his eyes off of her. She can smell the booze on him, just under the faint tang of seawater. "You're not thinking straight." He's never hurt her, probably wouldn't ever hurt her, but something still compels her to walk on eggshells. "I'm flattered, but I'm not... I'm married." She shifts her camera strap, adjusts her hair, covers up the blooming bruise.
It doesn't stop her face from feeling hot.
"I have to go." She turns for the exit before he can say anything else, point out an obvious lie where he surely sees it. But at the front door she hesitates, looks back over her shoulder at the detective. It's really none of her business what him or Zane do in their spare time, but she's thinking of blood and bruised knuckles and sharp teeth. "You don't have to go up there. Maybe you shouldn't. Maybe... maybe neither of us should." And then she's pushing her way through the door.















