#elvis diary

"I guess I haven't met the girl yet, but I will, and I hope it won't be too long because I get lonesome sometimes. I get lonesome right in the middle of a crowd. I've got a feeling that with her, whoever she may be, I won't be lonesome no matter where I am." - Elvis Interview (August 22nd, 1956)

I was in the car recently with my mother, and we were listening to Elvis radio when this little interview came on. I said to her, "Even in a room full of people, even with so many friends and family around him, he always felt so alone."

And she asked me, "You don't feel that way, do you?"

To which I said, "Sometimes I do."

And how true that is. Words can't truly describe the intense loneliness that one can feel deep within their heart even when by all logic, they shouldn't feel lonely at all.

You can't explain to someone why your heart aches, why your soul feels empty, why you stand surrounded by friends and family and yet feel like you are completely alone in the world without a single person around to fill the deep void and abyss.

Because loneliness is not measured by how many people you have in your life. It is not measured by the friends and family that come and go. You can have all those things and still...

You feel empty.

You feel unseen.

You feel unheard.

You feel like just another leaf blowing in the wind, floating through life without any real direction, without really knowing how much people care or who is really there to love you when it truly matters.

The loneliness, the ache, is constantly perpetuated by doubt and uncertainty. Despite the affirmations, despite the declarations of love, none of it eases the skepticism you feel deep within you.

Nothing can erase the fear that beats at the back of your mind, constantly haunting your thoughts that maybe, just maybe you might feel like this forever.

And feeling alone is just that. A feeling. A deeply insecure feeling that leaves you questioning your own reality and place in this big wide world.

So how does a man like Elvis, with everything he could ever want or dream of, feel such intense loneliness?

That is the deeper question, and yet an answer, I can not find. Not even for myself. </3

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Side note: This photo really spoke to me the other day. It's almost as if I can feel the emotion pouring from the image, connecting to my soul all these years later. ♡