It’s been a while
Hi guys, I hope everyone is doing well. I promise to keep this very brief. First off, I am terribly sorry for being absent for so long with no explanation. I think I have a good reason, and while I know it’s not necessary to tell you guys everything, I feel like I have to.
In July, both mine and Mathew’s life was threatened by someone in my immediate family. I had to move abruptly for the safety of my Dad, whom I was living with at the time. I moved in with Mathew (my bf), which while was extremely risky and so quick into our relationship, I didn’t have the means to live on my own.
Unfortunately, I didn’t have much luck as my laptop died right after and I lost ALL my posts that I have created for this blog, including my notes on the manga and other canon-related material. It broke my heart so bad that I couldn’t even log onto the blog without feeling miserable. I felt uninspired and didn’t want to post because I knew that they wouldn’t be the quality that I wanted them to be.
Another thing that held me back was that every time I tried to log on, I kept having flashbacks to writing posts in the back of the moving truck. I can’t even log onto this blog now without all these feelings rushing back to me.
It’s the exact reason why I stopped writing stories on FF.net.
Every time I tried to write, I kept remembering how my stepdad used to mentally torture me, literally doing anything to make sure that I wouldn’t be able to write my stories in peace (turning the TV up full volume when my mom wasn’t home, cutting off the internet without warning so I lost all my progress etc.).
Things are much better now; however, I am too busy to maintain this blog at the moment. I am currently balancing a government job, a Master’s degree, and a research assistantship that has drained me of all spare time. While I can’t promise that I will come back, I just thought that you guys all deserved to know.
It was truly a pleasure to create for you guys and words cannot capture how grateful I am for all the support I have received. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. You gave confidence and love to a girl who was told that she wouldn’t amount to anything.
For those who still wish to keep in touch, I have recently been active making silly Tiktoks with Mathew @ellamakesvidssometimes.
Thank you again.
Ella
