#ella.

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As composed as Charlie was, his urges couldn’t always be ignored. Twisted, dark, and haunting games had to be played or else he would be driven further along the edge until that game was the only game he could play. He had a fun little chase with a guy who was almost too cute to let go. But he couldn’t do that. Things got a little too rough and before Charlie knew it there was blood on his hands that satisfied the urges for the most part, but left him in quite a dilemma. Honestly, he hadn’t even remembered going to this alleyway or really most of what happened and that was because he had chosen it that way. 

He was close enough to Wonderland to clean himself up and he did just that, even though he couldn’t quite get the stains out of everything, he just changed his clothes and tried his best to keep moving. Because if he stopped, he froze, if he froze, he started a new chase. He was going to go straight home and let it all out there, for the sake of appearances more than anything, when he stopped himself by that alleyway again. He needed to get rid of this. He had to clean up. But his mind was far too gone to focus and he just started cursing to himself under his breath as he sighed and kept moving. He was getting sloppy. He doesn’t know why. But each time had felt like it wasn’t enough. Like he wasn’t doing enough and he was waiting too long and now he could hardly contain himself. Was this what a spiral was? He had never not been in control before. He had always been the prodigy, but the one doomed to destroy everything he touched. 

He did destroy everything he touched. And it was starting to bug him. And the only thing he could think of as a reason for that was the company he was keeping. He needed to put an end to this. To all of this. 

He ran his fingers through his hair and just started...walking. He didn’t know where he was going he was just trying to calm himself down before he did something else he wasn’t ready to clean up. When he bumped into Ella he cursed himself long and hard. Ella. That was the worst person to run into right now. Someone so sweet and pure and kind that all Charlie wanted to do was destroy her and never look back. He took a deep breath. “Ella.” he didn’t look at her. He couldn’t. “I...you need to run. Away. Now.”