#eliot talks

Literal. Literal queer erasure, I’m losing my fucking mind, what is wrong with them

However, I deeply apologize for having hurt and upset fellow Ukrainian people by reblogging a cover I made for them years ago. I am not working with or ever will work with a russian owned business again.

And then they're all like oh okay no that makes sense actually, it's just not smth people ask usually, not cause it's taboo or anything, it's just . . . not smth many people think of, I guess.

And then they go around sharing stories from their respective faiths and percy is ofc respectful and listens intently and sometimes he may ask questions and stuff but he never dismisses them or makes fun of them or their beliefs [bc like, if the greeks, romans, egyptians, and norse are out there, who's to say that there aren't more? who's to say that they're not all out there, yknow?], even if he is a little weird about them sometimes but that's all just because he doesn't understand lmao

I just, idk, I think Sally probably raised Percy mostly atheist yknow? and its not like he's entirely unaware of Christianity and Judaism and Islam and all that, he just doesn't have any clue how those religions are practiced/worshipped and stuff. His only real exposure to that kind of thing is what he's seen on tv and then his own experiences with how they 'worship' and interact with the gods at camp.

So he just thinks of deities as being mostly Just Some Guy who happens to have powers and a superiority complex. He thinks of 'higher powers' as, like, idk if personable is the right word, but I mean, he thinks of gods as just people. He doesn't understand the whole reverent worship and devotion and like, detachment from God attitude that like, Christianity has and stuff like that.

So Percy will just say the wildest shit sometimes, like, 'oh yeah, Zeus is a horny bastard and an absolute asshole, but he's the king of the gods so if we don't give him proper respect or tribute or whatever he gets pissy. What about your God? Does He get grumpy if you don't like, go to church on Sunday or smth?' or 'do you think you could get me in contact with Jesus? because Zeus put Dionysus in sobriety time out and he's all cranky about it bc he can't conjure wine ig but like, if your guy did it for him it might get past thunderbutt's restrictions and then grapehead might be less cranky?'

"Waited so long to break these walls down, to wake up and feel like me, put these patterns all in the past now, and finally live like the girl they all see"

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"We can't fix it if we never face it"

"Between imposter and this monster, I've been lost inside my head"

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"I can be your sanctuary"

"I'm the only one who'll lovе your sins"

"Listen 'cause I'm preachin' to the choir, can I get the mic' a little higher? Gimme your desire, I can be the star you rely on"

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"I broke into a million pieces, and I can't go back, but now I'm seeing all the beauty in the broken glass"

"The scars are part of me, darkness and harmony, my voice without the lies, this is what it sounds like"

"Why did I cover up the colors stuck inside my head? I should've let the jagged edges meet the light instead! Show me what's underneath, I'll find your harmony"

"We're shattering the silence, we're rising defiant, shouting in the quiet, you're not alone"

"We listened to the demons, we let them get between us, but none of us are out here on our own"

"So, we were cowards, so, we were liars, so, we're not heroes, we're still survivors"

"The dreamers, the fighters, no lying, I'm tired, but dive in the fire and I'll be right here by your side"

"Fearless and undefined, this is what it sounds like"

*basically the entirety of What it Sounds Like*

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WHAT IF I FUCKING DIED HUH

WHAT IF I JUST FUCKING CEASED TO EXIST HUH!?

JUST KISS MY ASS GOODBYE BECAUSE I AM DECEASED

THESE LYRICS GO SO FUCKING HARD IM INSANE