32) things you said I wouldn’t understand
It’s witty banter and terrible puns that happen between the two, or is it him just idealizing their relationship? Him believing that Cole MacGrath actually liked him, that Cole actually didn’t mind that he was now the face of Conduitism. The Bannerman.
He worries.
Unnecessarily so. Because this wasn’t Reggie, this wasn’t family. But every time Cole opened his mouth to criticize or to scold, he felt like a little kid again. A small little kid that did everything wrong. He knows he shouldn’t be so hard on himself, but this was Cole MacGrath ; patron saint of new marais. Whereas Delsin Rowe was The Bannerman. The dude was the turning point in conduitism, he was the celebrated hero. He was the standard. He shouldn’t be worried but he is.
“ Hey, you ever think Seattle would love you? ———- ` A rhetorical question, and he lets the silence culminate between the space between them. They were eachother’s foil,
“ I think they would, you know, if you just told them all you were alive… `
But Seattle was less than kind to Conduits now thanks to him. The last thing they wanted was a another conduit to stir things up in their city; even a patron saint. And Cole had Delsin to thank for that. Even if he were to announce his existence to Seattle, to the world even, he’d be criticized and targeted. He was the beast once, he could be once again.
But they’d be blaming the wrong person.
Even now he feels the changes in his body. The accumulation of power and elements crowding inside him, fighting for room, leaking from him like loose faucet. It was overwhelming. But it was also addictive. To know he had all this potential inside him, ready to do whatever he wanted to do. He can still hear Reggie now, ‘is this how you want to leave your mark on the world? huh?’
He briefly wonders if this was how The Beast felt when he had lost control. This choice that was so easy to mistake as something good, like he could be an influence for change. Radical change.
He worries but that worry is offset by hope. Cole MacGrath was a hero. There was no denying that, no matter how much teased and berated him. He’s always had potential to be something bigger than just Cole. He gazes up at the other, wide eyed and honest,
“ With great power comes great responsibility, uncle Ben said that in the Spider man movie, the 2002 one. “
There’s a curve of a smile, “And you’re waaaay stronger than me. You’d probably be the guy who could kick my ass,” it’s not a question, it’s not a compliment, It was a fact.
When the going went rough, he relied on his brother to guide the way. To be his anchor amid the anxiety of everything. Cole wasn’t his brother no matter how much he compared him to him. Cole was made up of sharp edges and rough shapes, he was rational. And Delsin knew he couldn’t depend on him like how he could his brother.
His smile dwindles to something serious and grave, he gives Cole a pointed look, “so never stop giving me shit for my bullshit, alright? `
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