I had my second counselling session today. I explained to her that it felt like she had taken all of the bees in my head and pinpointed which bees I should focus on.

The key focuses were on:

- The idea of an ‘ego state’ which she explained as quite defensive and wants to protect you, it’s not 100% good or bad but too much here and it can override your judgement and what that produces during collaboration and presentation is not so good. - that there are things that I control and things I have no control over like what people think or say so not to worry or avoid the feeling but to figure out what I do have influence over which is how I receive it, my awareness and mindfulness and being non-judgemental - we spoke about the unhelpful thinking styles and to clock them and be aware of what I do, to catch what my feeling in my body is - we also spoke about the drama triangle and the winners triangle, their points and their characteristics.