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oh that's easy to psychoanalyze! most tgirls don't get a real childhood, they get forced into this stalwart masculine role and have traumatic experiences around having their hair forcibly cut at a young age or having stuffed animals thrown away for being "too girly".

so the fact that one of the most common tgirl sexual fantasies boils down to "what if i got to do childhood again, but as a girl this time, and it's fun this time" is really easy to understand. i could write a thousand more words and still come to the same conclusion.

not really as punishment, no, punishment doesn't work.

@innumerable-voices has talked about this a good bit, but punishment doesn't actually work to change behavior, it just serves to condition fear. and frankly, what i want out of my ageplay is feeling safe and cared for and doted on, not scared of what my mommy might do next.

hmph! but i'm a big girl and should get to say big girl words!

...i pass that much?

no but like i'm also a tgirl lmao. i guess i don't as aggressively post transfeministly on this blog but no i'm super much a tgirl.

it's like. wetting but more solid. it feels gross in a very littling way. i'm not sure how best to describe it, honestly.

i'm doing a decent job maintaining control, honestly. if no one extends it, one month of this will be *easy* to go back from.

it's easy to use the diapers but a lot of the time i'm keeping conscious control to throttle wetting regardless because i don't want to flood the diapers and leak, and that's a good way to exercise the muscles even when i can wet whenever i want.

and in terms of messing? yeah there's no way i'm losing control of that considering how much of a Process i'm going through whenever i do it. it'd take someone IRL actively forcing the issue for a good long time to start compromising that control at all.

1) How'd you find out you liked diapers?

gods, those are old memories several ego deaths ago, so details are gonna be scarce but. diapers are one of the very few kinks i have that actively predate hatching as trans. before i knew i was trans, almost all of my sexuality was directed into god-awful tg and forcefem fics as a valve, and i only developed almost the entirety of the rest of my sexuality after the egg crack but diapers are different, because agere being tied in with the degrading feminization was a very common element of the shitty egg fic i used to read all the time, and that stuck with me a lot. in some ways, wanting to not just be a woman, but to get to be a *girl*, y'know? and diapers and the humiliation and infantilization therein are such an obvious element of that, right? so yeah, i got into diapers from horrible egg fics, and it's stuck around ever since. very very old kink of mine alongside broader TF as i approach a decade since hatching

8) What's your favorite diaper(s)?

this one's easy: 4-tape bunny hopps are some of the cutest and comfiest diapers i've ever worn. they have worse capacity than megamaxes so they aren't anywhere *near* as practical, but they're so so so fucking cute that i wish i could wear them so much more.

22) If you could design a diaper, what features would you give it?

fade when wet all the way *gods* i need fade when wet patterns. everything attached to that of like. everyone knowing that you had an accident, it being a sign that your mommy needs to change you, it being used as an aspect of "potty training" that you don't want the bunnies to go away? it's so cute

28) Do you wear pull-ups at all? Do you like them?

i used to wear pull-ups a ton more. i wore pull-ups at minimum for the entirety of 2025 (though obviously that was filled in with more than pullups a good portion of that year), and i used them when weaning off the few months of 24/7 in case i had a real accident. and pull-ups are cute and i do like wearing them, and i think as part of a long-term "attempted retraining" scene they'd be adorable, but these days if i want to spend the money on diapers, i wanna spend it on ones i can properly use, y'know? the cloth diapers that will eeveentually give me the opportunity to go 24/7 forever for significantly cheaper don't buy themselves