#eelo rambles

life update accidentally becoming an engineer

Shut the fuck up he messaged me I am so giddy, rolling on the ground rn

back on tumblr cuz it's october already and I miss you lunatics

just beat hades 2 32 fear underworld after dying about a million times and I feel like just- no words for it, I am going to bite the screen and kick chronos in the balls is how I feel

midnight coughing fits✨✨✨✨✨

i miss technoblade. i miss him so much. i just wish he had more time. he deserved more. he knew that the cancer had spread for months when he did those streams, when he tried to make us all feel better. he was suffering and we had no idea. he was coughing for months it was probably the tumor in his lungs and we all thought it was nothing. maybe it was covid or some annoying flu we genuinely thought that and so did he. i can't help but wonder could all if this have been different. if we had pushed him to go to the doctor, if he was scanned earlier by the doctors when he went to get medicine. i have so many ifs and i know none of them will bring him back to us. yet i can't help myself it's all ifs in my head. i miss technoblade so very much.