trash on the walls and trash on the floor,
liquid eyeliner stuck to the door,
screwing everything up and doing everything wrong,
in my defense, i wasn't supposed to be around this long
i mean, maybe if you tried more, maybe if you tried,
maybe if you took more vitamins, you would learn to live a fucking life
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do drugs, have sex, tell your deepest darkest secrets to your friends,
post cringe, buy guns, are you done yet?
fuck, not enough, cry a river, smash a cup,
but it's never gonna be enough
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maybe if you try more, then you would deserve it,
maybe if you fixed the whole world by yourself, then you'd earn it
i can never do right in your mind,
it's just so hard to stay attached to this world
bernadette, you are my liberty,
i celebrate the day,
that you changed, my history of
life and death, will always lead you into love and regret,
and you have answers, but i have no key,
to bernadette
does anybody like me?
everybody likes you,
everybody likes you,
everybody likes you,
everybody likes you,
everybody lied to you,
everybody lied to you,
everybody lied to you,
everybody lied to you
there must be something in the cornflakes,
making it hard for us to think straight,
i just wanna go from here,
close my eyes and disappear,
i just wanna be the comic relief,
making jokes, not taking any responsibility,
it's waking up inside of a dream,
don't know what to believe
i'm just a parrot when i'm screaming and i'm shouting,
'more crackers, please, more crackers, please',
i want what i want, and i don't wanna be
so the winner, takes it all,
and the loser, has to fall,
throw the dice, cold as ice,
way down here, someone dear,
takes it all, has to fall,
it seems plain, why complain?
have you ever died in a nightmare?
woke up surprised you hadn't earned your fate?
my sweetheart's piano is rat-filled,
and mine is infested with bugs,
the music we make is unnatural,
but it sounds just like falling in love
oh, don't tell them what you've done, tell them what you've done,
the war's already won, why do we go on?
don't tell them what you've done, tell them what you've done,
tell them what you've done, tell them what you've done,
tell them what you've done.
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scared of the memories that make me insane,
i'm scared of the smile, i see on the page,
i'll cover these vibrant eyes, and forget the pain
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little voice ruining my sanity,
evil dreams haunting me,
don't you ever look my way,
little voice ruining my consciousness,
nothing left to reminisce,
i would rather run away
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all my thoughts have estranged,
free me from the mental cage,
how could i forget my name?
when i said 'take me to the moon',
i never meant take me alone.
i'm on my way to your house,
can't wait anymore,
i'm pulling in the driveway,
i'm standing on your porch,
my knuckles hesitate, an inch away from the door,
what happens when it opens?
even in my fantasy, i can't commit to believing,
that i'll get what i want,
i'm afraid of what i want,
even in my fantasy, i keep the car running,
in case i need to take off
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the months blur, together,
i watch the ceiling buckle,
i wonder when it's caving in,
there's a black hole in the living room floor,
i keep, standing on the edge,
and, looking in
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and on the other side, is another life,
a version of me, with a spark in her eyes,
that i don't have,
and now she's laughing,
and it's killing me that i cannot see,
what's making her laugh,
from where i'm standing
i will only break your pretty things,
i will only wring you dry of everything,
but if you're fine with that,
you can be mine like that
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cause in the night, i know you burn,
with feelings i cannot return,
my dear, oh my dear
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oh, i will ruin you,
oh, i will ruin you,
it's a habit, i can't help it
are you ashamed of me, or did you buy what i'm selling?
it won't last you long, it'll disappear,
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don't look up to me, i'm not as tall as you think,
you see, i talk a big game, but it's bullshit
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is it a gift you give, or something precious i'm taking?
stolen your sympathy, for all my worst mistakes
won't you stay with me, my darling?
when my walls start burning, down, down, down?
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won't you stay with me, my darling?
when this house don't feel like home?
when this house don't feel like home?
oh, ashes, ashes, dust to dust,
the devil's after both of us,
lay my curses all to rest,
make a mercy out of me
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all my aching bones are trembling,
and i may yet fall apart,
won't you stay with me, my darling?
when the war starts in my heart?
when the war starts in my heart?
oh, ashes, ashes, dust to dust,
the devil's after both of us,
lay my curses all to rest,
make a mercy out of me,
oh, ashes, ashes, dust to dust,
tell me i am good enough,
lay our curses all to rest,
make a mercy out of us
those of us, who swore never to love again, to love again,
are making liars out of honest men,
it's not, something that you put to bed, hang your head and just forget,
no, love don't know how to rest,
no, love don't know how to rest
you built your kingdom, around me,
now i'm trapped within your walls,
and all i want is to be free,
for as winsome as you may be,
all you're doing now is losing me,
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i gave you, everything i had, and now i want it back,
oh, i gave you, everything i had, now i,
now i want it back
i am a fish inside a birdcage,
my brother always sings me songs,
and with his beak, he tries to soothe me,
he makes me feel like i belong
the captain lives by the sword,
and the captain loves by the sword,
when the captain dies by my sword,
he'll leave me trapped in the cockpit,
crying out 'mayday'
i have a hypothesis,
i'm part of an experiment,
in which i'm the control,
and everyone i care for is an inconsistent variable
i'll change my name, or change my mind,
and leave this fucked up place behind,
but you'll know, you'll know,
you'll know, you'll know,
you'll know, you'll know,
you'll know, you'll know
kissed that first night, and the rain opened up the sky to get,
one last kiss,
i love you like an alcoholic,
one last kiss,
i love you, like a statuette,
one last kiss,
i need you like i need a broken leg
i hate myself, i love you, and you broke me
that kiss in the rain ruined my life
killing you was the thing that truly broke me in the end
meeting you was the best thing that ever happened to me
but i know i'll just end up killing you too