#eddiethewolf

Ever have times where you are left to your own thoughts? At my work place, I tend to do a lot of thinking, and thinking can be good sometimes. However, I find myself going into very deep thoughts that tend to make me overthink aspects about myself. I know I'm a very flawed individual among many others, and there are many things I'm very thankful about. But there are just certain things I wish I could improve as a person. Could this be about trying to please others? Perhaps... That is one of many things I need to work on, and I really shouldn't worry about what others think. I'm my own person after all, yeah? Anyway, these are what tend to pop in my head time and again. Be warned that some subjects may come off a bit dark. I wish... -...I wasn't so self-conscious. I am a very apologetic person for no apparent reason, and I tend to be that way over the smallest of things including stuff that was in no way my fault. Sometimes I think it's just easy that I take the blame. I don't know why... It's just how I have been for awhile. -...I didn't have intrusive thoughts. I can't say that I suffer from depression. I mean I can get depressed, but part of that may have to do with lack of sleep and stress from life and work. There have just been times where I think of some pretty dark things. I won't say how dark they are, but it's stuff that I could never bring myself to do. I did share something with a very close friend of mine, and I figured it wouldn't hurt to share an example of what I mean. Many of you know that both my grandfathers had passed away two years ago, both six months apart, and witnessing one of them passing away kind of stuck with me. Before I go to bed, I scare myself by thinking what would happen if my life ended right then and there. Where would I go? Who would miss me? What would it feel like? It's scary to think about, and I know better than that. It's just as bad as thinking what would happen if I were shot in the head. If not worse... -...I could speak up for myself. Being nice is a great feeling, and I like to think I do my best in being considerate to others. There does come a time where I wish I had a strong sense of being perceptive on who might be trying to take advantage of my courtesy. I have to be honest that I can be a pushover and very, very oblivious in my surroundings.  Many times I crave to have a backbone so I wouldn't have to put up with people's nonsense and call them out on it. Seriously, that would be a great feeling to stand up for myself and feel like I've done myself right. There are more, but I may have to call this finished for now. It's rare that I type this and share it with you guys, but it's been something that I've wanted to vent out for quite some time. Just so you all know that I'm all right. These things come and go, and I'm the only one that has to overcome these. I wouldn't want anyone to share some of my dwellings, but I do appreciate any concerns you folks might have. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Hope you all have a great rest of the weekend.

More Asriel! Just like I said I would. ^^ This time he is my take on what he would look like if he were alive and grown up. Probably if he were in his 20s. Still need to draw his expressions though. Expect them soon! Art (c) Myself Asriel Dreemurr (c) Toby Fox

I think I have discovered that I am furry, Zootopia, and Undertale trash, and I am not sorry about it. =P Really need to draw more! Send inspiration! DX Eh, I will be okay. Just a small post before I get off of my break for work. Hope you guys are doing well. :)

Eddie The Wolf signing off!