Frenchie: 

WHY WHY WHY do you still talk to that bastard!! It feels like you’re hanging out with him behind my back, which maybe you are! I get it, you don’t want to fight again, and I don’t either. But he does NOTHING for you! Maybe he makes you feel good but drinking sure did too for a while didn’t it? Until you realized that it was making you kind of an awful person and you try to get rid of it. (and I know THAT’S never something I’d say out loud but…)

Look, I get it, I’m a hypocrite for thinking all this then hanging out with someone like Jave, but you said things were better between you two now! On some level it feels like you just SAY that so you can get away with talking to him so it’s like we’re even or something but it’s different! You and Jave are in a relationship where the two of you hate one another and it works. Denis is a selfish lout who does nothing but make you want to drink again and make HIMSELF happy. 

 And why do you have to do it behind my back? Why do you have to hide about this from someone you’re supposed to talk to? I can be an adult about it! I can stuff my goddamned ego and worries and whatever the hell else about it while you fuck off with him. Because if you hide it, it only makes things worse like, why do you NEED to hide it unless you’re guilty about it and why are you guilty about something that’s “okay?” unless it isn’t really? And maybe I’m a stupid insecure brat about things, but what are you doing with him? Are you talking about how much you hate me for keeping you two apart? Or how it was nice when we broke up?? Because I don’t know and that’s all I can think and you don’t talk to me about this so we don’t fight but now I keep assuming the worse and–

Damnit…

Ghostie: 

I’m really excited for Ghostie… It’s a nervous excitement! But still… Whatever happened about Jave dying was not only avoided but Ghostie’s… He seems better now. Refreshed, obviously. And I think he knows he’s alive now and isn’t… Angry about it? He doesn’t want to change it, right now at least. 

He doesn’t like how he looks, I don’t think, but I hope he learns to like it. He’s just… He’s healthy now. A healthy weight and such that’s not scary thin or always drinking or doing drugs…