#ecstac

When I first met you I was afraid to talk to you, Afraid to utter words as simple as hello, I was not confident. I was not one of those bubbly girls on tv. I was me; shy, secluded, extroverted. You get that, right?

You did. You understood everything I told you; everything I showed you. You never disagreed with me or made me feel bad. I spent hours of the night talking to you, And hours of the day thinking of you. In my eyes you are perfect.  The honeymoon phase. Everything comes to an end. You were no longer the man I knew. You wore a bright mask that made it seem as though you were kind. You manipulated me, discouraged me, silenced me, embarrassed me. But even through all of that, I still love you.  I can never let go of you.  You removed the mask. The borderline that I so carelessly showed you, You crossed it.  True colors of darkness began to show. You tried so hard to convince me that you were different but you are not. You are like every other man that has entered my life. You used me, And that is something I can never forgive you for. 

$$$ ECSTATICALLY THUGGIN' #WHATDIRT $$$