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ALWAYS ACCEPTING ┊ headcanon questions

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Nimue excels at the art of smothering emotion. If it doesn’t serve her or if it doesn’t further a point, she’s not going to acknowledge it and she’s pretty adept at compartmentalizing things into little boxes and files in her memory warehouse for perusal at a later date OR to use against you later on down the road. She also has unparalleled patience.

So, first and foremost, if you’ve managed to piss her off enough that it actually shows on her face — I don’t know if you deserve a medal or to be set on fire. lmao Admittedly, there are two types of anger that Nim is fairly prone to. The first being when someone looks down on her or dismisses her for whatever reason. If you condescend to presume that she’s weaker, less intelligent, or some pretty possession, and you express that to her in as many words or actions, she’s going to be angry at you. The second being when someone or something manages to make her feel disappointment. Nimue quite literally goes out of her way not to rely on or expect things out of others, so in the rare circumstance where she were to get her hopes up or come to rely on you only to be met with disappointment or lack of action…well, not only will she be angry at you, but she’ll be angry with herself. It’s a lethal combination, I assure you.

The first and foremost response to both is: cold detachment. Nimue will physically separate herself from a negative situation, going so far as to put actual miles and barriers between herself and the issue. There is no three strikes and you’re out, you fuck up once and that’s it. Because not only has Nimue never been taught to process difficult emotional situations, but she wants absolutely nothing to do with them. The cold detachment is her way of masking that she feels anything anyway at all.

See, the thing is — Nim is actually carrying around anger with her ALL THE TIME. She doesn’t look like it and she doesn’t act like it, but there’s always bitterness and resentment bubbling just underneath the surface. Make no mistake, the calmest looking waters often have the harshest undercurrents. No one has ever taught her to let it go or asked her to talk about it, it’s just there and with her every minute of every day. She’s just convinced herself that it doesn’t matter.

IF she can’t immediately place distance between herself and her issue, she’ll channel her ire into other things. If she’s got to feel these things, she might as well convert the energy into something productive. She’s a stress cleaner, baker, and potion maker, make no mistake. She’ll play her harp or some other instrument for hours on end, obsessing over a particular melody until she perfects it. She’ll go for a three hour swim or run. Anything that ‘ sweats out ’ what she’s feeling. 

Again, she doesn’t seem like it but she’s actually a very aggressive person. She’s more physical in how she deals with things than she is emotional. It’s how she’s always been, it’s how she was raised and all she knows. That drive to prove everyone wrong, to do better and to be better so that she doesn’t have to be subservient to people or feelings. She’s just really, really good at swallowing down bitter pills — whether it’s healthy or not.

Royal Garden Parties were not always so exclusive, quite often it was members of the public that were invited. However on this one occasion there was an exception as foreign officers and war heroes whom had contributed to the war effort were the only guests on the list that summer, a celebration of victory and a promotion of ongoing alliances. 

             ❝  here’s  what  i’m  trying  to  understand  here.  how  do  you  end  up  with  ... copious  amounts  of  pictures  of  the  woman  who  we  just  so  happened  to  find  DEAD  not  even  twenty  four  hours  ago,   and  yet  you  sit  here  and  act  like  it’s  nothing.    please,   explain  to  me  how  you’re  so  relaxed  about  this,   because  from  where  I’M  standing  ?   you’re  about  as  guilty  as  whoever  pulled  the  trigger  --  or  maybe  that  was  you  too.   ❞            erin  glared  down  towards  him,   intimidation  being  key  if  she  was  going t o  get  even  the  SMALLEST  thread  of  information  from  him.   she’d  dealt  with  guys  like  this  before,   it  was  nothing  new  to  have  someone  sit  across  the  table  from  her  who  might  as  well  have  laughed  in  her  face  ;   but  she  never  backed  down,   not  once,  and  she  wouldn’t  start  now.

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