#e-diary

I’m sitting in the back of a Lyft on my way to work.  Don’t get me wrong, I did TRY and take the train this morning but I missed the A by merely 3 seconds and after waiting for 10 minutes, realize that it would just make sense to take a car service.

Had I taken it directly from my home it could have been deemed a safe ride (AKA : free)  

GT was a place that I used to enjoy heading to filled with people I enjoyed seeing.  Now I feel that there is this dark cloud hanging over it.  It makes me sick to my stomach that everyone on set knows about MC and the photo.  One girl (the girl who brought me into the tangled web) isn’t even speaking to me anymore after saying that she will continuously have my back.  Energies have shifted and people are on edge.  I do want to know if my name was the only one that was told.  Was B’s name involved?  How did my name come up after asking time and time and time again to have my name withheld?  Everyone around me is hot about this situation and I can’t blame them but the cat’s out of the bag (or in this case, the dog’s out of the bun) and now everyone is looking at me like I’m a victim, someone to protect.

The other recent interest I have is in driving around with no map. It’s a very stressful but fun way to spend time! I do not know if I am in the turn lane… the road paint is all gone… I will just have to see. I think it makes me better at driving. Its also very fun to drive to grocery stores and antique shops so I can spend as much time as I want in them. I always feel rushed.

At my recent solo-grocery trip, I got coconut cult…. which is supposedly super great for your gut health. I am gullible so I tried it. It’s very sour and I am excited to add it to my greek yogurt bowl this morning. I also bought a new kind of granola (for the aforementioned yogurt bowls) but its kind of weird and I dont like it. I will have to make due though…

It is so hard when you feel like an outcast… I am better at dealing with it when I am alone but when I feel outcasted with my friends it is a horrible feeling. No solution but to take time away…

I am also starting my job this Monday. I’ve met one of my coworkers and I really dislike him so far. He’s disrespectful and lacks empathy! Hes also a loudmouth… very hard. Only solution is to ignore him.

Yesterday, my little cousins (well, not really my cousins. My cousins kids. So I say little cousins) came over and we played (which mainly involves me chasing after them around the couch and being a customer at their restaurant.) They’re a handful but I love them ٩( ᐛ )و My mama was talking to their parents (my cousin and his wife) about maybe taking a trip to Disneyland together??? Which would be awesome. They have airline miles they need to use up and the girls have never been to Disneyland!

I’ve been fond of Disneyland even if I’m maybe not the target age range anymore. I think as I’ve gotten older and nerdier I’ve grown to like it even more!! Especially because I can plan it now.

Today, more houses to look at! Yesterday we looked at the craziest house ever.. they had a massive master bedroom with the biggest and craziest ensuite ever? There was swan waterspouts and carpet in the bathroom. Sooo outdated and glamorous in the way I like it. It was also way out of our hypothetical budget (1.2 million ( ´Д`) )

But yesterday, I watched “Memoir of a Snail” which was a really delightful movie that was very sad and unfortunate. I’m glad she was happy in the end though. I watched it at my local theatre pub, which is a great idea and wonderful place to have dinner and watch a movie. It was such a late movie though,, 8pm!! I don’t like staying out so late but I did get to hang out with @harleyheartshoney so that is nice.