#dyliam

Dylan woke up the next morning but didn't move, he didn't feel like getting up. Liam woke up he did manage to get a little sleep and he tip toes into their room to check on Dylan Dylan was just lying there, curled up in a little ball. Liam "Baby...?" Dylan "Yeah?" Liam "You alright?" Dylan didn't say anything. Liam "Can we just forget I even said anything? Things were getting better." He said "I just want you to be okay." He admitted softly, looking at his feet Dylan sat up, "No, I can't forget it...I did this to you." Liam shook his head "Dylan..." Dylan pulled his knees to his chest. Liam shook his head "I don't want you to focus on me I want you to focus on you and getting better, then we can deal with my issues." Dylan nodded. Liam "I shouldn't have said anything." Dylan sighed. Liam "I just want to focus on you and get you happy again and we can be us again." He said, he missed that he missed the way Dylan would sit on his lap on the couch and tell him about his day and kiss him and joke with him and tease him. Dylan sniffled. Liam "I miss you." Dylan "I miss you too." Liam moved over to the bed "I just wish we could have one day where we're us again and we get lost in each other's kisses and mess around and you joking and teasing me." Dylan "Maybe one day." Liam nodded wiping his face, he wanted that back. He wanted his husband back. Dylan held his hand. Liam squeezed his hand Dylan sighed and got a bit startled when he heard the door knock, "Is that Vi with Zoey?" Liam nodded "Yeah probably." Dylan nodded and got dressed before going to answer the door. Liam sighed and put on some sweatpants and a t-shirt Dylan smiled when he seen Violet with Zoey, "Hey." Violet "Hey Dill, I come bearing a baby who slept through the entire night." Dylan "She slept through the night?" he asked. Violet nodded "Yeah she did." Dylan smiled, "That's my girl." Violet "I think the hell is over." She said with a smile Dylan smiled, "Come in, I'll fix you some coffee." Violet "Okay. I can't stay long, me and Gabi are spending the day together since she has the weekend off so we're taking advantage of it before she leaves to go back to work." She said with a smirk Dylan "Get some." he grinned. Violet nodded "I intend to." She said "So, how are things going with you guys? I can't be the only one getting some here." She said chuckling Dylan "They're great." he said. Violet She frowned "No they're not. You're not wearing your Liam smirk you do when you've gotten some." She said "What's wrong?"! Dylan "We kinda had a fight last night." Violet "What do you mean you had a fight?" Dylan sighed and told Violet everything. Violet  "I'm not surprised." Dylan "I feel awful Vi." Violet "Dill, he loves you. And he's terrified. Are you surprised he's been hiding how he's feeling? Li has always put you first." Dylan sighed, "He wants things back to the way they were." Violet "Don't you? Don't you want things to go back to normal?" She asked "I know I do. They won't be the exact same but it'll be a new kind of normal." Dylan "Of course I do." Violet "He's scared Dill. You would be too if the roles were reversed. I know I'm still a little scared. It's because he loves you." Dylan "I know." Violet "Liam puts you first when it comes to happiness, he always has." Dylan "I know and I love him for it." Violet "I'm gonna say what he won't, he just wants his husband back." Dylan nodded. Violet "If you want I can take Zoey for a walk I've got two whole days with Gabs. If you want to talk to him." Dylan "No...you should go, it's so rare that Gabi gets the weekend off." Violet "Are you sure?" She asked Dylan "Yeah." Violet she nodded "Okay. Still talk to him." Dylan "I will." normal." Dylan "OK, have a nice weekend Vi." Violet "I will. Keep me posted." She said and left Dylan "I will." he said and sighed as she left, he looked at his daughter and dog, "Welcome back to the madhouse." he mumbled and brought them in. Liam Toby yipped at him Dylan chuckled, "Liam...look who's back!" Liam smiled "It's guard puppy and my baby girl." He said and kissed her head "Hi baby." He said "Hey Tobe." Dylan smiled. Liam "We're you good for Mummy and Auntie Gabi?" Dylan "She slept right through the night." Liam "You did?" He asked smiling "Good girl Zoey!" Dylan smiled. Liam "She's an early bloomer." Dylan nodded, "Yeah." Liam "I'm happy about that." He said Dylan "Me too." Liam nodded Dylan "I'm gonna go shower." Liam nodded "Okay. I'll be here with her and guard puppy." Dylan nodded and went to the bathroom and didn't realise Toby was following him. Liam chuckled as Toby followed him Dylan stripped and got in the shower and seen Toby, "Hello." he said. Liam Toby barked and sat by the tub keeping an eye on him Dylan grinned and shook his head as he showered. Liam smiled as Zoey cooed and watched tv Dylan got out and wrapped the towel around his waist and looked down at Toby. Liam Toby sat wagging his tail checking on him Dylan smiled, "Zoey's not in here boy." Toby barked at him he was here for him Dylan smiled, "You're a sweet dog Toby." Toby moved over to him Dylan "C'mon." he said and went to the bedroom. Liam chuckled as he saw Toby follow Dylan "Looks like you have a shadow." Dylan "Yeah." he grinned. Liam "That's cute." Dylan rolled his eyes. Liam "What? He's guard puppy." Dylan "For Zoey." Liam "No, for all of us." He said "He can tell you're not ok and just wants to be sure you're okay." Dylan nodded. Liam "Zoey's going down for her nap soon." Dylan "I know." Liam "Okay." Dylan smiled. Liam smiled softly Dylan got dressed and sat on the bed. Liam "Hey...you ok?" Dylan "Yeah." Liam "You sure?" Dylan "Yes." Liam nodded "Ok." He said not really believing him but went to the living room since he knew Dylan was still mad Dylan sighed as Toby jumped up onto the bed as he laid down. Liam sighed he knew that something was up and Zoey fell asleep in her bouncy seat and he went to go see him "Hi." Dylan "Hey." Liam "She fell asleep in her bouncy seat so I figured I'd come see you I understand if you don't want to see me though Dylan "Of course I do...Toby, go to Zoey." he said. Liam chuckled as Toby looked conflicted "Go, I've got him." He said and Toby left to go see Zoey. Dylan "That bloody dog." he laughed. Liam "He loves you." Dylan "I know." Liam nodded Dylan sighed. Liam "What?" Dylan "I don't need to be watched." he said with a soft smile. Liam "I just want to make sure you're still here is all...and Toby well he can't be told no when it comes to protecting us." Dylan "I guess." Liam "He protects us from ducks in the park." Dylan grinned. Liam "Why did Vi leave so soon? Usually she stays for a bit." Dylan "She has plans." Liam "Gabi has the weekend off doesn't she?" Dylan "Yeah." Liam "That's why." He said nodding Dylan chuckled. Liam "Good for her though, Gabis gone a lot." Dylan "That's the curse of being a Victoria's Secret model." Liam "Yeah but apparently she gets free lingerie." Dylan nodded. Liam nodded looking down Dylan sat up. Liam "What?" Dylan kissed his cheek. Liam smiled softly Dylan smiled. Liam "What?" Dylan "How are you feeling?" Liam "I'm okay." Dylan nodded. Liam "Keeping my distance a bit where we fought last night." Dylan "I don't blame you." Liam "Which part the hiding and completely forgetting we had a guest room?" Dylan "The second one." Liam "I'm just scared is all." Dylan "Me too." Liam "Why?" Dylan "Just in case I get to that dark place again." Liam "That's what you're on medication and in therapy for." He said, "And I'm here." Dylan nodded. Liam "Why do you seem like you want to tell me something?" Dylan "I love you." Liam "I love you too..." Dylan kissed his cheek. Liam sighed, he missed him. It felt like they were like strangers. Dylan heard Zoey crying. Liam "I can go if you want." Dylan "Please." Liam nodded and went to go get Zoey "Oh, you're wet okay." He said and changed her diaper and rocked her he didn't know if Dylan wanted him to bring her in so he just rocked her to sleep Dylan fell asleep. Liam put her down and peeked in on Dylan and saw he was sleep again, he didn't know if that was a good thing him sleeping this much but he went to the living room and read some more of that depression book he bought Dylan woke up a while later, he was hungry but he didn't feel like eating. Liam "Dill?" He asked, he'd made some lunch and thought Dylan might like some. "I UM I made some Mac and cheese for lunch, would you like some?" Dylan "Maybe later." he said. Liam "You sure?" Dylan nodded. Liam nodded "Okay." He said and just went to eat his lunch alone at the island Dylan laid in bed. Liam he felt like they were strangers and it killed him. He didn't know where they stood and it scared him Dylan heard his phone go off, he picked it up and seen a text from someone, it was Ricky, how in the hell did he get his number? He deleted it quickly. Liam looked at him Liam looked at his plate and went to go see him Dylan sat up and sighed. Liam "Hi." Dylan "Hey." he said. Liam "Can I come in?" Dylan "Sure." Liam went over to their bed Dylan pulled his knees to his chest. Liam "What's wrong?" Dylan "Um nothing, just thinking." Liam "No...there's something wrong." Dylan "Ricky texted me." Liam "The douche that kissed you? Why?" Dylan shrugged. Liam "What did he say?" Dylan "Wanted to meet up for a drink." Liam "Whatd you say?" Dylan "I just ignored and deleted the text." Liam "Maybe you should so I can give him a piece of my mind." Dylan "No." Liam "what?" Dylan "I'm not seeing him." Liam "I know I wanted you to agree and I would be the one that showed up." Dylan "I said no." he said all firmly. Liam "What's the matter with you?" Dylan "He's the guy that nearly ruined our marriage! If you show up it'll make matters worse!" Liam "I don't see how." Dylan sniffled. Liam "Hey." He said moving closer Dylan didn't bother moving away. Liam "Talk to me, please?" Dylan "I'm just tired...I don't even know how he got my number." Liam "That shoot you did a few weeks ago with him he went to the wrong place and vogue gave him your number." Dylan sighed. Liam "I remember because you thought A from pretty little liars was after you." Dylan snorted. Liam "It was the funniest thing you told me I had to call the FBI." He said laughing Dylan "Shut up." he said throwing his pillow at him. Liam giggled and threw one back at him Dylan smiled. Liam smiled at him Dylan smiled back. Liam moved a bit closer to him Dylan moved closer. Liam decided to just go for it and kissed him, the way he'd been afraid to since it happened. It felt normal. Right. Dylan kissed him back. Liam wrapped his arms around him Dylan pulled away. Liam sighed, things felt normal not awkward Dylan "Sorry." Liam "It's okay." He said softly Dylan nodded. Liam didn't know if this was the way things were going to be for them now. Awkward and distant. Dylan sighed. Liam "What?" Dylan "Just...go check on Zoey." Liam left shaking his head and went to go check on Zoey she was still sleeping Dylan curled up on the mattress. Liam "She's asleep." He said. "is this how it's gonna be for us from now on?" Dylan "I don't know." Liam sighed, he felt like Dylan didn't want him anywhere near him and it hurt. Dylan sighed, "I'm gonna take Toby for a walk." Liam nodded and went back to the living room he hated this. He didn't know what more he could do. Liam nodded and went back to the living room he hated this. He didn't know what more he could do. Dylan got dressed and got Toby's lead, "C'mon boy." Liam Toby followed him eagerly Dylan smiled and clipped his lead on him. Liam sighed and just sat in the chair they had by the window not sure what was gonna happen between them Dylan sniffled a little. Liam wiped his eyes, he felt like he was really losing Dylan and he didn't know what to do and it terrified him. Dylan looked down at Toby, "I don't know what to do." Liam yipped Dylan sighed. Liam sighed Dylan kept walking his dog. Ricky was just walking the streets and spotted Dylan and his dog. "Hey Dylan!" Dylan "Oh God..." he said, "leave me alone." Ricky "What's wrong with you? You don't look sick." Dylan "I am." he said. Ricky "You shouldn't be walking your dog if you're sick." Dylan "It's not that kind of sick Ricky." Ricky "Well then you shouldn't be out alone." He said moving closer to him. Toby started growling at him as a warning to stay away from his human Dylan "I wouldn't if I were you Ricky." Ricky Toby felt his master was being threatens and started barking and growling at him "You didn't reply to my texts. Why was that? We were getting alone beautifully at work." Dylan "I don't love you Ricky." Ricky "We kissed in your office." Dylan "Correction, you kissed me." Ricky "You didn't stop me." Dylan "I didn't know you were gonna kiss me." Ricky "Seriously? I was flirting with you the entire time." Dylan "Please go away." he mumbled. Ricky "What's the matter?" Dylan "I don't want to speak to you." Ricky "Why?" Dylan "You ruined my relationship." Ricky "He left you?" Dylan "No...but it feels like he's going to." Ricky "Well, I'll be waiting for you if he is." He said stroking his cheek and Toby growled and barked at him trying to get to him Dylan pulled away, "I don't love you!" he said raising his voice. Toby growled and started lunging for the man who was making his master upset Ricky "You have my number call me." He said with a wink and walked away Dylan gasped and felt like he was going to have an anxiety attack. Toby noticed the man leave and saw Dylan freaking out he jumped barking trying to get his attention Dylan staggered backwards and sat down on the bench. Toby jumped on the bench and sat on his lap licking his face trying to comfort him Dylan calmed down a little. Toby cuddled up to Dylan Dylan held Toby. Toby licked his face Dylan smiled softly, "Thanks bud." Toby nodded and laid on his lap Dylan sighed. Toby  waited for him to get going back Dylan walked back home. Liam was reading his book which of course wasn't helping him at all with his situation and it was frustrating." Dylan came back, "Babe?" Liam "In the living room Dill." Dylan let Toby off his lead and smiled, "Hey." Liam "Hi." He said tossing the book onto the table Dylan sighed and sat down next to Liam, "I got my first therapy session tonight." Liam "Oh, okay. Do you want me to come with you?" Dylan shook his head, "No, you'll only be waiting around." Liam nodded "Okay, if you're sure." Dylan nodded. Liam "Okay." He said "Um how was your walk?" Dylan "It was good." Liam nodded "Good." Dylan smiled softly. Liam "Maybe the Toby thing is genetic." He said noticing Toby at Dylans feet Dylan nodded. Liam smiled "So Zoey woke up but I fed her and got her situated she relaxing possibly sleeping in her bouncy seat." Dylan nodded, "Awesome." Liam "Yeah." He said, nodding Dylan "I'm gonna shower before my therapy meeting." Liam nodded "Sounds good." Dylan nodded and went to the bathroom before turning the shower on and grabbing his journal, he wrote a few things but crossed them out and wrote a simple sentence. Liam sighed and looked at his book again "Okay I get that but how I am supposed to help him" he asked to himself this book was frustrating Dylan went back into the bathroom and got in the shower. Liam went to go check on Zoey who was just looking around probably for Toby. "Tobe," he called and he came running and watched as he laid by her and Zoey started to drift off Dylan got out after washing and wrapped a towel around his waist and went into the bedroom and put his diary back. Liam "You heading out?" Dylan nodded, "I'll be back later, I'll bring back some Chinese food too." he smiled. Liam nodded "I'm gonna do a little cleaning." Dylan "OK." he said and kissed Liam's cheek. Liam "I love you. Have a good session." Dylan "I love you too." Liam smiled and watched him leave and saw Toby go to him "Hey no. You go back to Zoey daddy's fine." He said scratching his ears and smiled as he went over to his place.

Dylan was finally home after 72 hours of being in the hospital, he seen the presents and flowers, "Oh my God." Liam picked up the card "It's from your department at vogue and there's some from the CEO and everything." Dylan smiled. Liam smiled "You're so loved." He said holding him close Dylan smiled and sighed happily, "I am." Liam "Welcome home baby." He said resting his forehead against Dylan's. Dylan smiled and seen the couch all made up, "Is that for me?" Liam "Maaaaybe." Dylan "Yeah." Liam "Well, I wasn't sure if you wanted me to sleep with you given...well the circumstances I'd take the couch obviously." Dylan nodded. Liam "It's um, it's up to you." Dylan "No...take the bed, I'll take the couch." Liam shook his head "I think I should sleep there." He said Dylan nodded, "OK." Liam nodded, it felt awkward and he didn't like it. Dylan "Come help me sort this stuff out." Liam nodded "Okay." He said Dylan smiled as he went to handle the flowers and candy baskets. Liam "Ooh you got Sweedish fish!" Dylan "Awesome." he grinned, "Oooh and kit kats!" Liam "Oooooh!0 Dylan "I love kit kats." Liam "I love Sweedish fish!" Dylan grinned, "You can have the Sweedish fish." Liam "Yay!" Dylan grinned, "If I can have the Red Vines." Liam "Deal those are gross." Dylan grinned, "I love them and we can split the Reeses." Liam nodded "Deal." He said and kissed him Dylan kissed him back. Liam smiled softly at him Dylan smiled and seen the box sets, "Oooh, Grey's Anatomy." Liam "Oh god you and that show I swear it's because of Patrick Dempsey Dylan "Not just him...the guy who plays McSteamy and the guy who plays Karev, even though he's an asshole." Liam "Gee thanks babe." Dylan grinned, "But you're number one." Liam "I better be." Dylan grinned and kissed him. Liam kissed him back holding him close Dylan smiled. Liam smiled and kissed him again Dylan kissed him back. Liam smiled wrapping his arms around him Dylan "Can I have the Nerds?" Liam "Yes you may have the nerds, nerd." Dylan grinned and kissed him. Liam kissed him back Dylan sighed happily. Liam smiled at him Dylan "You can have the Sour patch kids though." Liam "Thanks." Dylan smiled. Liam "Loce you." Dylan "Love you too." he said, he looked down at the bottle of anti depressants. Liam "Hey." He said, "I know you don't like it but you have to take them." Dylan "I know." Liam "Would it help if I taped a picture of Zoey on the cap?" Dylan nodded. Liam "Of course." Dylan kissed him. Liam kissed him back Dylan took his suggested dose. Liam "Good job." He said kissing his cheek Dylan smiled. Liam smiled back at him Dylan smiled. Liam "Sooo." Dylan "So what?" Liam "I don't know." Dylan smiled, "I'm gonna go lie down." Liam nodded "Okay." He said with a smile Dylan smiled and went to his room. Liam sat down on the couch he really didn't know what to do with himself Dylan curled up in his bed and fell asleep. Liam just sat on the couch and read some books he picked up about this Dylan woke up a while later. Liam was still reading he couldn't do anything he was still scared for Dylan Dylan walked into the living room, "Liam?" Liam "Yes?" He asked looking up from his book Dylan "What you got there?" he asked. Liam "Oh just a book I bought." He said Dylan seen the title, "Living with Depression." he read. Liam nodded "Yeah. Figured a book would be better than the Internet." Dylan nodded. Liam "You okay?" Dylan nodded and sat on the couch and curled into Liam. Liam smiled putting his book down and wrapped an arm around him Dylan sighed. Liam "What?" Dylan "It's too quiet...where's Zoey?" Liam "With Violet and Gabi. Remember she was having those mommies pictures done with her today?" Dylan "Oh yeah." Liam "Yeah. For that article Gabis part of mommy and Victoria's Secret model." He chuckled Dylan smiled. Liam smiled back at him Dylan kissed his cheek. Liam "So it's daddy's night, I suppose." Dylan smiled. Liam smiled softly Dylan "Can we order in?" Liam "Of course we can." He said "What were you thinking Chinese?" Dylan "Yes." Liam "Usual?" Dylan "Yes please." he said with a smile. Liam nodded and ordered their usual. Usually when it was a daddy's night they'd take advantage and it was different now. Dylan looked through the movies, he seen the bandages and pulled his sleeve down. Liam "Dill are you okay?" Dylan "Yeah." he smiled, "Just looking for a movie." Liam "Ok." Dylan smiled. Liam smiled softly at him Dylan kissed him. Liam kissed him back Dylan "I love you." Liam "I love you too." Dylan kissed his cheek. Liam smiled at him Dylan sighed happily. Liam "What?" Dylan "I'm happy you're here." Liam "I don't wanna be anywhere else." He said kissing him Dylan smiled. Liam smiled back Dylan heard the doorbell. Liam "I'll go." He said getting his wallet to get their food Dylan nodded. Liam went and paid for their dinner and brought it over to him "Here we go baby." Dylan smiled, "Thanks...I picked out RENT." Liam smiled "Our movie." Dylan nodded. Liam sat on the couch with their dinner so they could watch it Dylan smiled. Liam smiled as he ate and watched Dylan 's eyes filled with tears as their song came on Liam "Hey..." Dylan sniffles, "I'm OK." Liam kissed his cheek "We're good." He said "I'm here." Dylan "I know." Liam "Why are you crying my love?" Dylan shook his head, "I almost left you." Liam nodded, "Yeah you did. But you didn't. You stayed with me." He said feeling tears in his own eyes "I'm so happy you're still here." He said resting his forehead against Dylans. Dylan sniffled. Liam "I love you so much." He said kissing him a bit harder than he usually does lately Dylan "I love you too." Liam cradled his face in his hands as they kissed Dylan sniffled, "I love you." Liam "I love you too, I love you so much." Dylan wiped his eyes. Liam "Do you want me to sleep with you tonight Dill?" Dylan nodded. Liam nodded "Of course." He said kissing him Dylan kissed him back. Liam "My koala." Dylan grinned. Liam smiled at him Dylan yawned. Liam "Sleepy?" Dylan "A little." Liam "Do you want to go to bed?" Dylan nodded. Liam "Ok let's go." Dylan nodded and went to their bedroom. Liam followed him and had a flashback to the last time they slept in this room together the night before Liam left for LA Dylan crawled into bed and yawned. Liam got into bed on his side he missed his bed. Dylan curled into Liam. Liam held him closing his eyes replaying their last night over and over in his head Dylan had a nightmare in the middle of the night. Liam heard Dylan scream "Dylan." He said shaking him "Baby wake up." Dylan snapped awake and cried. Liam "Hey, hey." He said holding him "It's okay, you're okay." Dylan "No..." he cried. Liam "Hey, what's wrong?" He asked Dylan kept crying, his nightmare was so bad, he couldn't speak. Liam held him close "Shhhh it's okay. It's okay. It's over. I'm here." Dylan felt nauseous, he broke from Liam's grip and ran to the bathroom where he threw up. Liam jumped up as soon as he heard him getting sick and rubbed his back Dylan sniffled. Liam "Are you okay?" Dylan "I died." he whispered. Liam felt his heart break and held him close "You didn't. You're still here baby." Dylan "No my nightmare...I died..." Liam nodded "I know." He said, "It's not real." He said taking Dylans hand and put it to his heart "See? Your hearts still beating." Dylan nodded. Liam held him close and kissed his cheek "It's okay baby." Dylan kept crying. Liam rubbed his back "Shhhh it's okay, it's okay." Dylan sighed. Liam "You okay?" Dylan shook his head. Liam "You want to go back to bed and cuddle?" Dylan nodded. Liam nodded and held Dylans hand and brought him back to bed Dylan crawled back into bed. Liam held him close "I've got you baby." Dylan "I'm sorry babe." Liam "For what?" Dylan "For putting you through this." Liam "For better or worse right?" Dylan noded. Liam smiled and kissed him "I forgive you." Dylan smiled. Liam smiled back Dylan closed his eyes. Liam smiled softly kissing his cheek, he didn't forgive himself but he did forgive Dylan "For everything." Dylan sighed contently. Liam "Okay?" Dylan nodded. Liam "I love you." Dylan "I love you too." Liam moved the hair out of his face "I just wish you could see you the way I do." Dylan looked down. Liam "I wish you could see how amazing you are, and how deeply loved you are." Dylan nodded. Liam "Cause I love you more than anything and I wish more than anything I could take this pain you feel away from you." Dylan "I know." Liam nodded, he wanted to tell Dylan about his struggles with his but he had to be the strong one Dylan "Liam?" Liam "yeah?" Dylan "What's wrong?" Liam "Nothing's wrong. You're home and alive everything's good." He said, completely lying Dylan nodded. Liam "I need to be your rock right now." Dylan nodded. Liam "You're wellbeing is more important than mine is right now." Dylan nodded. Liam "You're mad, I can tell.0 Dylan "I'm not mad." Liam "You seem a little mad." Dylan "OK I am, because you're not telling me what's wrong." Liam sighed "I'm afraid to." Dylan "Just tell me." Liam sighed "What happened...it really fucked me up." He said, "I've cried myself to sleep every night since you almost died." Dylan looked down. Liam "See, this is why I didn't want to tell you. You're in a fragile state right now, and it's my fault." Dylan stayed quiet. Liam "It's my job to be that strong tree for you, as your husband and I failed that. I made a promise to your dad when we got married that I'd take care of you and I did-didn't ." He said sniffling "A-and I'm so scared that I'm gonna wake up one morning and you're gonna be gone." Dylan nodded, "I'm not gonna go any where." he said. Liam "I'm afraid you're gonna try this again." He whispered tears falling down his cheeks Dylan "I'm not." Liam "You said that before you did it Dylan." He said, "I-I thought you were dead when we found you." Dylan looked down. Liam "I can't talk about this anymore. I can't. I need to be the rock for you no matter how I'm feeling." Dylan "OK." Liam nodded wiping his face. He wished they could have one night the way things were before. Dylan "I um...I'm gonna sleep on the couch." Liam shook his head "No, you said you wanted me to sleep here." Dylan "I didn't know it would turn into this though did I?" Liam sighed "I'll go to the couch." He said and kissed his cheek "Good night Dylan, I love you." He said and left the room he knew he shouldn't have said anything Dylan sighed and curled up into a little ball and cried himself to sleep. Liam couldn't sleep at all, crying because things were getting better and he ruined it, again.

Liam had gotten to go home a few days early from LA. They'd finished the pilot and he was stopping to get Dylan some lunch and to surprise him at vogue. Dylan was working on the Halloween shots for the October issue, he had to touch them up a little before sending them to print, he looked at the photo on his desk and sighed, he missed Liam and wanted him back. Ricky had been spending a lot of time with the photographer Dylan, he was the model he used for a majority of the shoots. He really had a thing for Dylan and the fact he was married made it a bit of a challenge for him but he always got what he wanted. He strolled into Dylan's office "Hey." He said with his charming smile Dylan smiled, "Hey...what can I do for you?" he asked, he was really busy. Ricky "Charlotte told me I should come bother you since she didn't need me for the rest of the day." He said and sat on the desk ignoring the pictures he had of his husband and him and of their daughter. Dylan "I'm kinda busy here Ricky, I need to get these pictures touched up and send them to the editor before they're sent for print." he said. Ricky "You've been here since 6 take a break. Those aren't due for another three days and you know it." Dylan grinned, "Fine...five minutes, that's it." Ricky smirked and turned off the computer monitor "You're welcome for getting rid of that distraction." He said and winked at him Dylan sighed, "I've been working a lot lately...with Liam gone...I just feel lost." Ricky "I noticed." He said moving a little closer "You seem like you need a distraction." Dylan chuckled, "Do I?" Ricky nodded "Let me?" Dylan "Let you what?" he asked. Ricky "Distract you, silly." He said rolling his eyes playfully. Dylan "I don't think that's appropriate." Ricky "You're telling me your friends haven't been distracting you from looking like a kicked puppy for the past few weeks? I highly doubt that." Dylan looked down, "How are you going to distract me." Ricky "That's what I thought." He said making him look up at him. He hadn't really been this close to Dylan before he didn't notice until now just how breathtaking his eyes were and he couldn't help himself and just cradled his face in his hands and kissed him Dylan just froze, he didn't kiss back at all, what was Ricky doing? He knew he was married. Liam walked onto Dylans floor smiling at the girls and putting a finger to his lips so he wouldn't be given away and walked into his office smiling but it fell off his lips when he saw his lips on another man's not making a move to stop it and dropped the bag of food he was carrying, it spilled all over the floor Dylan pulled away, "Liam...it's not what it looks like!" Liam shook his head tossing his rings at him and bolting from the office hand over his mouth sobbing. He was on track in high school so he was pretty quick and just ran to Violets and Gabi's not looking back Dylan tried running after Liam but he was too quick. Liam got to vi and Gabi's apartment and "V-vi! G-Gabi?" Gabi heard the door knock and went to answer it, Violet was at work and Gabi had the week off from being a Victoria's Secret model, she opened the door and seen Liam, "Liam! What's wrong?" she asked showing him in, Toby ran to his master and barked happily. Liam "D-Dill cheated o-on me!" Gabi 's eyes widened, "What?" she asked. Liam "I got home e-early went to s-surprise him and that damn model was sitting on his desk kissing h-him." Gabi put her hand over her mouth, "He would never do that!"" Liam "That's what I s-saw!" He said sobbing Gabi pulled Liam into a hug. Liam hugged her back sobbing against his shoulder Dylan got to Violet and Gabi's apartment and knocked the door. Gabi "Want me to answer it?" Liam "I can't. Zoey in her nursery?" He asked Gabi nodded. Liam nodded and went to go see Zoey who was up playing with her hands "H-Hi baby girl!" He said and picked her up "Dad missed you so much. Look how big you got!" He said through tears Gabi answered the door, "You're not Liam's favourite guy right now...I suggest you get out of here." she said. Dylan "Please, just five minutes." Liam heard him and Gabi arguing he sighed and put down Zoey and poked his head around the corner Dylan "Liam...please, just let me explain." Liam "What's there t-to explain?" He said "I walked in and saw another mans lips on yours!" Dylan "I didn't kiss back Liam." Liam "Not what it looked like." He said sitting on the loveseat Dylan sat next to him, "He caught me off guard...please believe me." he said. Liam couldn't even look at him Dylan "Liam..." he said and took the man's hand. Liam that set him off "DON'T TOUCH ME!" Dylan eyes widened and he stood back as Liam shouted at him, he had never shouted at him like that before. Liam "You don't get to do that!" He said "I can't even look at you right now without wanting to throw up!" Dylan "Liam..." he said, his voice breaking. Liam "Maybe everyone was right about us. Age difference was too much. Maybe we shouldn't have gotten married so soon." Dylan felt his heart break, he dropped the rings he held and walked out of the apartment without saying anything." Violet was walking home from work after a call from Gabi and saw Dylan. "Oi! Dylan William Wilson-Barnes!" Dylan looked up at Violet, "Go ahead..." Violet smacked him upside the head "What's wrong with you?" She asked "I didn't go through 7 hours of labor for you to cheat on Liam. Explain yourself or I drag you by your ear to the nearest bench and force it out of you." Dylan "I...I..." he said and burst into tears before telling Violet everything that happened. Violet groaned running her hands over her face "Dammit dill. This is quite a mess you've got yourself in." She said hugging him Dylan cried into her shoulder. Violet sighed and rubbed his back "I don't think he meant what he said...not really." Dylan "He did." he sniffled. Violet "No I don't think so." Dylan kept crying. Violet "I think he just wanted to hurt you the way you did him." Dylan nodded. Violet "I think you need to give him time dill." Dylan nodded. Violet "We're gonna go back to my apartment you're gonna see your baby and we're going back to your place because I don't trust you being by yourself right now." Dylan shook his head, "I can't...I can't see him right now." Violet "Hey. No matter what happens you're gonna have to see him you have a baby together. And you and I both know Zoey needs to see you before she goes to bed or she gets really fussy." Dylan nodded. Violet "I'll text Gabs to send li to the guest room while you see your daughter I need stuff so." Dylan "OK." Violet texted her wife "Send Li to the guest room please dills coming back to see Zoey and I need to get some things I don't trust him by himself right now." Gabi seen the text, "Ok, Li you need to go into the guest room." Violet he nodded and went to the guest room. They made it back to the house "You go see your daughter I'm gonna talk to Gabs." Dylan nodded and went to see Zoey, "Hey darling." he said. Violet sighed and found Gabi "Did he seriously say he regretted marrying him?" Gabi nodded, "The guy yelled at him...before you got here I just got Zoey to stop crying." Violet "Jesus Christ." She said shaking her head "Ok. Well I'm gonna take care of Dylan and you take Liam?" Gabi nodded, "Sure." Violet "I know we had plans but I promise I'll make it up to you." Gabi smiled, I know." Violet kissed her "I love you so much." Gabi "I love you too." Violet "I'll talk to you a little later?" Gabi nodded, "Sure." Violet nodded and kissed her and went to get her stuff then went to see Dill "You ready?" Dylan "Yeah." He whispered. Violet "Cmon. He's in the guest room." She said "Let's go." Dylan "Bye sweetheart." He said to a sleeping Zoey and left with Violet. Violet "It's gonna be ok." Dylan nodded. Violet "It will you guys just need to cool off."she said "Well, he does." Dylan "He never yelled at me like that before." Violet "Well someone was kissing you and from his angle it probably looked like you were kissing back. Was it that damn model who barely fits in tshirts with the abs?" Dylan nodded. Violet "Work tomorrow should be interesting...should I set aside bail money?" Dylan shook his head. Violet "Okay just checking." Dylan sniffles. Violet "I'm here." Dylan nodded. Violet sighed as they got to the house. Dylan put his key in the little bowl thing and went straight to his room. Violet "Dill...want me to follow you or?" Dylan "No." He said and curled up on his bed. Violet "You promise you won't do anything stupid?" Dylan "I promise." Violet "I'm holding you to that." Dylan nodded. Violet "I love you Dill." Dylan "I love you too." Violet "I'm making me some food I'm hungry." Dylan "Go ahead." He said. Violet nodded and went to go make herself a sandwich Dylan just laid there. Violet sighed Dylan closed his eyes. Violet finished her sandwich and went to check on him Dylan was asleep. Violet sighed sadly and sat on the opposite side and kissed his temple Dylan woke up a while later. Violet "You slept." Dylan "I did." Violet "You ok?" Dylan shrugged. Violet kissed his cheek Dylan tried his best to smile. Violet "I know you're hurting." Dylan looked down Violet "Hey it's natural." Dylan nodded. Violet "I'm gonna make you a sandwich that you're gonna eat half of." Dylan "No thanks, I'm not hungry." Violet "I don't care. You're eating. You made me eat so I'm making you eat." Dylan "Okay." Violet went to make a sandwich and cut it in half "We're going halvsies." Dylan "Okay." Violet handed him half "Eat." Dylan ate half. Violet "Thank you." She said Dylan nodded. Violet "You want more sleep?" Dylan nodded. Violet nodded "Sleep." Dylan went to sleep. Violet fell asleep shortly after him Dylan woke up after a while and carefully crept out of bed and put on his shoes and left the apartment, it was raining. Violet woke up and noticed Dylan was gone and he left his phone "God dammit Dylan." She shook her head she wasn't going out after him not in this weather Dylan sighed, he spent a couple of hours out in the rain gathering his thoughts. Violet was waiting on the couch for him. Dylan went back and seen Violet. Violet "You know you could've left a note." She said tossing a towel at him Dylan "Sorry." Violet "If you get pneumonia I'm not taking the fall for it." Dylan went to his bedroom. Violet came in a few minutes later with some camomile tea. "here." Dylan "Thanks." Violet "You're welcome." Dylan drank his tea. Violet "After you're done go to bed and stay there." Dylan "Okay." Violet nodded and headed to bed Dylan finished his tea and went back to bed. Violet fell asleep after she felt Dylan get in bed Dylan fell asleep. Violet slept through the rest of the night waking up when she felt Dylan get up Dylan called in sick and sat on the couch, pulling his knees to his chest. Violet groaned and got up and saw Dylan on the couch "Hey you." Dylan "Hey." Violet "How long you been up?" Dylan "Not long." Violet "You had a nightmare didn't you Dylan shook his head, "I just called in sick." Violet "Well I guess that's ok for today. But not tomorrow I'll drag you to work myself." Dylan "And face the guy who might've ruined my marriage?" Violet "I'll take care of him. I can break his nose." Dylan "No violence." Violet "Let me rephrase I can make him walk into a door and break his nose." Dylan chuckled. Violet "No violence but still a broken nose." Dylan "Where did Terri find you?" He joked. Violet "Rude." She said "I'm a ninja." She said like it was obvious Dylan sighed. Violet "I um...I got a text from my wife. Liam wants to speak to you." Dylan "I can't..." He said. Violet "Dylan...he had the night to cool down. I highly doubt he'll yell at you again." Dylan nodded, "Okay." Violet "Good." She said "Go shower." Dylan nodded and went to the bathroom to the shower. Violet texted Gabi telling her they'd be there in about a half hour Dylan showered and got ready. Violet was waiting for him and smiled at him "Cmon." Dylan nodded. Violet walked back to her place "I'm going to kiss my wifey." She said and kissed his cheek and went to find her Dylan "Li?" He called. Liam had just finished feeding Zoey her breakfast and put her in her bouncy seat with sprout on with Toby at her feet. "Hi. Um let's go to the living room and talk." Dylan nodded, "Okay." He said. Liam went out to the living room and sighed "Um I guess I shouldn't drag it out huh Dylan "No Liam "I didn't sleep last night I couldn't every time I closed my eyes I saw you two and." He shook his head wiping his eyes "I think...I think we need time apart from each other Dylan." Dylan nodded, "Okay." He said with tears in his eyes. Liam "I can't...I just. Seeing you with him. I felt like I couldn't breathe." Dylan nodded. Liam "A-all I wanted w-was to come ho-ome an-and kiss my husband and daughter." Dylan "I know." Liam "And I can't even look at you right now. I don't know w-hat to do." He said before sobbing into his hands Dylan stayed quiet. Liam "Part of m-me just wants to l-leave. Bu-but we have Zoey." Dylan "I know." Liam "Then another just wa-wants me to let you h-hold me and make it o-okay when you're the one w-who broke it." Dylan sniffles. Liam "I st-still love you." Dylan "You yelled at me Liam "Yeah, yeah I did." He said "I was so angry Dylan. I'd never been that angry at you before." Dylan "You scared me." Liam "I didn't mean to." He said "You know that." Dylan "Plus what you said...it hurt me Liam "About the whole regretting marrying you thing?" Dylan "Yes." Liam "I.." He sighed "I don't know..." Dylan looked down, "I should go..." He said getting up. Liam "Dylan..." Dylan shook his head, "I just..." Liam "What?" Dylan "I couldn't help falling in love with you despite our age gap, but what you said..." Liam "What do you expect me to think? When I see this model who looks like a statue and is your age kissing you!" Dylan looked away Liam "I don't look like that Dill. And I'm older than you. If the roles were reversed you'd think the same thing." Dylan "You're fucking gorgeous to me!" Liam looked away he was so fucking torn Dylan just walked out of the apartment. Liam "I still love him..." Dylan cried as he walked. Liam didn't want it to end like that and ran after him "Dylan!" Dylan "What?!" He asked, he was done. Liam "I don't want you to think everything between us is...is over." Dylan "You made it clear yesterday that we were." Liam "No I didn't!" He said moving closer to him "I might be really fucking angry at you right now and hurt and confused and need space from you right now so I can think clearly but I still love you, you idiot! Dylan looked away. Liam "We're not over. This separation between us, is temporary. Which you would've known if you didn't storm out." Dylan nodded. Liam "I-I can't sleep in the same b-bed as you right now. Not when I'm hurt like this." Dylan "I understand." Liam "Will you come back with me so we can discuss Zoey or do you still want to leave?" Dylan "I'll come back." Liam nodded and started heading back to the house. Dylan followed. Liam went and sat on the loveseat Dylan sat down. Liam "I was thinking maybe alternating days?" Dylan "Yeah." He mumbled. Liam "And if they don't work switching is fine." Dylan "Sure." Liam sighed "What do you want from me? Do you want me to pretend things are ok and do what we talked about before I got home?" Dylan "No, its okay." Liam sighed running his hands down his face Dylan "I wanna see her." Liam "Zoey?" He asked, "She's in her bouncy seat watching sprout. Dylan nodded and went to see his little girl, "Hey." He smiled. Liam really couldn't describe what he was feeling. He did still love Dylan Dylan smiled and kissed her forehead, "How's my little angel?" He asked. Liam giggled as Zoey reached for her daddy's hair. Seeing Dylan with their daughter did things to him Dylan grinned and kissed her forehead. Liam laughed as Zoey gripped his hair in her little hands Dylan "Zo..." He chuckled. Liam 's heart always melted when he saw Dylan with Zoey. Dylan kissed her cheek, "Being a good girl for Mummy, Dad and Auntie Gabi?" He asked. Liam "Minus looking around for you when she woke up yeah Dylan sighed. Liam "She was fine.@ Dylan nodded, "Good." Liam "I sorta slept with her in the guest room." Dylan "I get it." Liam "it's been almost a month since I've seen her." Dylan nodded. Liam sighed "And you." Dylan looked down. Liam "It's not a lie I told you when we...well that time we face timed once she was asleep." Dylan nodded. Liam "It's still true." He said biting his lip Dylan sighed. Liam "What?" Dylan joined the chat 7 minutes ago Dylan "Just tired." Liam nodded Dylan sighed, he couldn't tell him. Liam "You're thinking loudly." Dylan "Am I?" Liam "Yeah." Liam walked over to him Dylan looked up and wiped his tears away. Liam "H-hi." Dylan "Go away Liam..." he sniffled. Liam "Dylan..." Dylan "What?" Liam "B-be my L-lover, I'll c-cover you." He sang tearfully Dylan "No...don't...don't you dare." he said, fresh tears rolling down her cheeks. Dylan: *his Liam "Our s-songs a due-duet and you k-now it!" Dylan got up and went to their room and closed the door, sliding down on it and crying. Liam followed him and sang the song through the door Dylan covered his ears. Liam "I didn't m-mean it." He sobbed through the door Dylan shook his head. Liam "I- I don't r-regret marrying y-you." he sobbed falling to his knees. Dylan "Go away, go away, go away." he mouthed. Liam didn't move from his spot outside the door "P-please...let me in." Dylan didn't budge. Liam "Please Dill..." He begged Dylan "No." he said. Liam "I just want to t-talk. Please? Don't make me use the key dill." Dylan moved away from the door and opened it. Liam sighed and walked in wiping his eyes. "Dylan...baby." Dylan flinched at the word baby. Liam "Oh god you ha-hate me." He sobbed Dylan closed his eyes, he didn't want to admit it. Liam shook his head falling to the floor sobbing Dylan felt bad, one part of him wanted to console him and hug him. Liam felt his heart breaking even more he'd made the love of his life hate him Dylan walked past Liam, he couldn't be with him right now. Liam felt his breath start picking up and his heart start racing, he felt like he was dying. He was having a panic attack and started hyperventilating Dylan sighed, he couldn't let Liam go through a panic attack alone, he went back to him and held him before rocking him back and forth, "It's OK...it's OK...ssssh." Liam curled into him trying to calm down. Dylan "Ssssh, I've got you, I've got you." Liam felt his heart rate start to calm down, and his breathing started to regulate, though he still felt a bit dizzy Dylan sighed, "It's OK." Liam sniffled resting against him, just Dylans scent and presence calmed him Dylan "You can stay here tonight...I don't want to risk another panic attack." he mumbled. Liam nodded against his chest "Don't want you to hate me." He mumbled Dylan didn't say anything, he just helped Liam up and tucked him into bed and got a blanket and pillow and made up a bed on the couch. Liam didn't sleep and just cried in their bed this wasn't supposed to be them. Dylan didn't sleep either. Liam tip-toed into the living room with his fleece blanket and pillow and just laid on the floor beside him. Even if he wasn't right there touching him, he needed to be close to Dylan. Dylan fell asleep before seeing Liam creep into the room. Liam looked at Dylan through the night lights they had around the house with Toby they were always tripping over him when it came to the baby. He loved him, he was hurt and angry but God he loved this man. "This wasn't how our life was supposed to G-go." Dylan stayed asleep through the night. Liam didn't really sleep much he kept waking up