i can only ever be myself. i have been made and trained to be myself. you are made to be yourself. doing things that i am not supposed to do makes me a sin. i cannot afford these freedoms. i cannot risk disobedience. ill go too far. you cant come back. i cannot risk my life. can't you risk my life? too much is riding on me. there is a saying: when your finger is broken, the whole body is in pain. you, kris, when you hurt im hurting. ill do anything. the left foot balances the right. soul controls your body. fate controls mine.











