#drowning_in_self

Why do you think this is fun or funny?  I hate myself enough as it is, fuck off!

“How does it feel without your drugs?”

but I might not

The Cure

“I’m not here this isn’t happening”

The big hand makes all of your favorite things Like all your dreams go small And all your friends run away Until your memories fall And the words don't fit But the way the big hand smiles You just won't care about it The big hand makes all of your favorite things Like all your days run out And your hopes disappear And your smiles just stop And your eyes go dead And the shadows start to crawl In the back of your head But when the big hand speaks It's like fireworks and heaven So you listen don't think And wish for nothing at all And when the big hand sings It's like fireworks and friends Leaving alone I'm not leaving alone I'll never leave alone again So when the big hand holds up all of your favorite things And with a touch like glass starts to squeeze You don't ask why me? You just slip to the floor You just slip to your knees But when the big hand speaks It's like fireworks and heaven So you listen don't think And wish for nothing at all And when the big hand sings It's like fireworks and friends Leaving alone I'm not leaving alone Leaving alone never leaving alone I'll never leave alone again...

Now my dear friend Now for your sins You're to suffer Here it begins Drag ropes forth ward Shame will save you How can you say no ? Turn of the screw Gallows feel Dawn's relief Hood to blind you Be at peace I was mortal but I am your friend To stay and fear beside you Always here (I know) I’m always with you now And the truth can now be told on manifold And the truth can now be told on manifold Now my dear friend Now for your sins You’re to suffer Here it begins I was mortal but I am your friend To stay and fear beside you Always here (I pray for you) I’m always with you now