he couldnât look at his face, but not because his features were crooked and scarred, not because of the nervous tremor that rattled through the otherâs body, no.
his spirit may have changed, no longer the cock sure boy parading as a man grown. his face had been rearranged, marked by the rage of another, the life striped from its movements, each expression more of a mummerâs farce than a true articulation of emotion, but still jon could not bare to cast eyes on him for too long.
he smelled like home; like a fire burning in the great hall, like molten steel as mikken turned liquid to blade. he sounded like youth; like wooden swords striking one another, like laughter, like robbââ the warmth that radiated from winterfellâs walls rolled off his skin, heating jonâs icy flesh quick enough to burn.
his face lacked the innocence of the boys they had once been, but he still carried it with him, buried deep under the abuse. and that was something jon couldnât face.