fucking fuuck. drinking urges/rationalizations are creeping in
but i am on veryyy thin ice with work, plus i have a 7am therapy appointment tomorrow so i have to get up extra early and be [relatively] functional. not to mention, it would likely lead to other symptoms (which I don’t want) and i could [physically] injure myself, which i also don’t want. so why do i still want to drink? why isn’t that enough?








