#drinking not drunk

How do u go and tell Me about how you got drunk and asked for a kiss How you held his hand for balance and it felt right When you know how i feel Does my post as best friend Override the feelings I have spoken,written,shown... Silently held in my chest. Do my affections mean nothing when it comes to the conflict you face? I am selfish i know To want you to myself. Sometimes. But then you show this side. Not perfect But flawed And i see you and still I look up at you And i want you Always. And you are not worth it. Are not worth this pain Or lack of I dont know anymore. I am just trying to leave it behind To shed away the layers That have grown in your presence That exist because of you But underneath To the bones While i am dragging what remains And still not rid of you I can see I was not me Till that day i saw u I was not whole till u crossed the street And we walked home