#drew sharp

I know Walt is annoying and stupid and robbing the train was a bad idea in the first place. But Mike really dropped the fucking ball not telling him and Jesse that Todd was gang affiliated when they hired him. Mike would chew a person to shreds if anyone else made that big an oversight!

Breaking Bad had its problems but it is the only piece of media I’ve ever come across that acknowledges the inherently predatory nature of toxic masculinity in relation to boyhood… how it demands the sacrifice of future generations to the alter of ego, how it’s complete eschewal of the more “feminine” virtues, such as kindness and mercy, invariably results in the perversion of innocence, in the martyrdom of young boys. Brock, Tomás, Drew Sharp, the little red haired boy in Peekaboo… but especially Tomás, not only murdered over what was essentially a glorified pissing contest, but forced to murder in kind prior to being disposed of. And especially Jesse. Because there were so few women players in the drug trade, and because traditional masculinity, despite its pretenses of bravery, requires an exhibitionist show of force over those not in a position to retaliate, he is made to be The Bitch of the drug trade, a surrogate woman to be fought over, doted on, degraded, protected, and eventually discarded, specifically because he is younger and smaller than his colleagues. It’s an insidious and considerably less fantastical inversion of the myth of predatory effeminate queerness, where instead it is traditional, toxic masculinity that pollutes the innocence of boyhood to achieve a psychological high, and it’s the reason why Jesse is so steadfastly dedicated to shielding boy children specifically from the aftershocks of drug trade politics. But his attempts to mitigate the damage done to other boys in the name of traditional masculinity are beyond futile, at least as long as he himself is still subscribed to that mindset.