YOUR LIPS ARE WICKED AGAINST HER SKIN…

but not as wicked as the lies that have departed from them moments prior— “it’s okay love…” “it’s alright” “i’m okay” “nothing’s wrong”

… all said in order to avoid what could have been the near inevitable future, which would have possibly entertained the idea of her ever leaving you.

but you instead just had to chase after what once was, or what could’ve been; and had it not been for your deep-rooted nature- and the killing, lust-abiding side of you that just wanted to take. take all her love.. her desire.. her future—to yourself… and now her best friend's presumably lifeless body. and make it your own as if it was ever meant for you in the first place. the person who she thought was dead for many years now being in her arms, a new person that carried even the oldest memories with her regardless.

it could be a good thing that you embraced this side of yourself. the side that was just wanting of a separate identity through which you would be able to completely tend to those hidden sides of yourself.

but she was only half of your impulse control and she fell victim to it too, especially in this heated moment that captivated the two of you, and had you sharing so easily.

and you can’t help but to whine as she rolls her entire body into you more firmly than before. since moving from being held against the kitchen counter so desperately- to her bed in a frenzied fashion, kissing all sloppy with passion and hands grasping at tangles of hair.

even in your heated desire there’s a kind of regret— and not because it doesn’t feel good to finally have her against you despite everything- because between you and love, it most certainly does. but only because you can’t help but to wonder if your skin will crumble under her roaming touch, falling apart to reveal your true nature. and all the monstrous parts of you that have consistently worn out by being drenched with a crimson red- a blessing in itself.

the color that you've tried so desperately to hide from her upon sudden revelation. covering up all the negatives and replacing it with the only positives you had left to give to her. distracting her from the future, whatever the opposite may have held in comparison to the present.

and she’s just as desperate as you are, maybe even more so as she strengthens the grip of her fingers that take their place on the back of your neck, and caressing the hair and skin there as her warm tongue covers your own- discovering the parts of you left undiscovered by her for the longest time…

she’s known you her whole life. but do you really know her at her core? is she really even your best friend? has she ever even truly been your best friend after all this time? they say friends make the worst enemies but albeit the great lovers. it never came to you that she'd have her own secrets to hide, with her basically being a jumping target for the world to see. but then she holds your hands together in her own, guiding them up against pasty sheets, until she's satisfied with the position she has you in.

she's above you, a small giggle leaving her kissed lips as she gazes down upon you in all your glory. her eyes shine at the sight... until there’s suddenly more pressure being applied.

more & more pressure than what is physically comfortable. her knuckles turning an obscene shade of white as her fingers burns marks into your skin from how tight the hold both hands have on you.

before you can even get a single word out from the discomfort there’s a crack, and that’s when you realize from plain ignorance— that it’s too late to dwell back into your thoughts…

her lips quivering and tears fall down her flustered cheeks. a confirmation of regret, and then nothing as she leaves the room, locking the door behind her. you can only watch as everything surrounding you bursts up into flames. leading a trail over sheets. and up to your body. forcing you to make peace with death.

BABYYYYYYY when I tell you these past few months have been a journey for me I'm not playing when I say that at all. However, I do plan to get Dressed With Red back in action as it should be and have it be consistent from there- because when I start something best believe I'm gonna finish it. I felt passionate about this project when I first started it, and I still do now. Just gotta keep the momentum going because once I start again I won't stop. You'll see these beloved characters more lively than before, just have the patience that I don't have.

MISS TANYA.

it takes time, it's slow and it feels as if you've been left in the cold at times. it makes your stomach churn as if you've been poisoned. but it's blissful and fills you will peace regardless. there's something about it that makes you want to come back for more, like a visiting patient.

MILENA VERANO.

this one is ever consuming like a rapid fire. it penetrates but it's impenetrable. it takes off and crashes in an instant. two people that could've been each others worst enemies, but are each others greatest lovers instead. carnal & harsh but dedicated and forever.

TREVOR HEART.

the wish you never knew you ever would've needed. it feels like memories and happiness. it fills you with nostalgia and all the good memories in the world. it feels like the one positive in a world of negatives. the one person that gives kindness where it isn't received.

AYESHA GENESIS.

stolen glances and not knowing exactly what to do at times. having too much time on your hands and figuring out how to best spend it together. it's patient and indescribable. there's not really a word for it, and yet it feels like coming home. it feels fresh and brand new.

LOVE SMITH.

it looks like childish laughter hidden under covers. a sense of joy and feeling completely free. it feels like finishing each other sentences and correcting them. it feels like no strings attached but still being at each others hip.

LEX ADLER.

it feels like learning how to tolerate each others differences. it's protective and unyielding. it's a human shield. it's the love where one shares their vulnerable parts with the other, and that one person only. it's a last resort.

I think about a lot of things. I think about the lack of female representation that actually gets down to the nitty gritty and isn’t all so very performative and lackluster like the stuff usually thrown around in the entertainment industry. I’ve always been inspired by women in Hong Kong who’ve been kicking ass since before I was even born and l’ve always adored spy and assassin films, also fight choreography that includes women, that being of mainly action films.

In terms of inspiration on an individual basis I specifically think of Mulholland drive, of Kill Bill, of Charlies Angels, of Pretty Little Liars, of Jennifer’s body, and etc etc.

you definitely can and I think that'd be a very interesting take character wise. Dressed With Red addresses the MC's mental health and if they are either healthy or unhealthy, as well as their trauma and etc.. so you get to take a look into the MC's mind and decide what the MC's thought process would look like so the possibilities are endless in this sense.

ROS REACTIONS ...

miss tanya

she likes purposely getting reactions out of you and intentionally doing things just so that your more sadistic, sly side comes out often. she wouldn't shy away from poking at the sleeping lion, especially if that means you'll check her for it too. but she'd especially be more endearing when it comes to the side of you that's much more shy and quiet.

trevor heart

just worries over embarrassing himself in front of you or saying something completely stupid that he'll regret. he'd probably be anxious, but not because of your behavior, because of his own. he loves you either way and wants you to know that too, always.

milena verano

she'd love both sides of you completely and entirely. but she'd take more of a liking towards the side of you that's more sadistic, sly, and cunning. because it's as if she's met her dual, her equal... she resonates with that side much more, but enjoys being around the more passive side of you just as much.

love smith

will only really just giggle in amusement, not mockingly- but because she really feels as if she could get up to some things with either side of you. but when those mood switches occur, she'll play along and treat it as if nothing all that surprising happened. she'd be down for anything that your sadistic side calls for.

lex adler

he'd be very patient, and unwavered by your sudden mood switches as he can relate in a way. he's usually very passive and stoic but once you invoke the fire, you just do. it also takes a lot to get him to calm down once he's fired up, but he does so anyway. he meditates a lot after all.

ayesha genesis

Operation Penance has been a highly anonymous and secretive operation for over 54 years, in the present time- 55 years. Operation Penance is a cultivation of all the freedom, horrors, and hidden desires that have been hidden by it's assassins of which being mainly women and fems.

Operation Penance was supposed to be a form of liberation for women and a place in which they could reside in where their truest desires were not shied away but ultimately fulfilled. Operation Penance not only gives these women a chance at being respected greatly, but also so that they could be given another chance at life; an exhilarating and risky life at that. Operation Penance digs deeper into what the actual desires of the women in the Dressed With Red world are- all different viewpoints but they all follow back to one thing- power and bloodshed. It is a non-victimizing place to be in and is only suited towards the strongest, both in mind and in gut. They only accept those who have bad blood in some way as that is the driving force of Operation Penance.

Mikel Grey, having been in charge of Operation Penance for almost as long as it has existed- is the sole leader of Operation Penance himself. he has the cadence of a political leader, but carries himself otherwise. he is cheery but deadly as hell and is one who wouldn't like having his buttons pushed. he has co-leaders as well as trained assassins that he calls security that he keeps scattered in every sector of the Warehouse that he has built specific bonds to. he has been decided overall to call all the shots of his business. I won't tell you too much about him as it would include spoilers- but this man is much more than he makes himself out to be.

There have been opposing Operations, those of which specifically targeted Operation Penance under the guise of completely dismantling it. but due to its long lasting years and abundance of powerful and thoroughly trained assassins, all other Operations against it have ceased to exist after Operation Penance's power has only been upheld more and more. but you will see if there are any more foes coming in later on...