uhm so hi ;( tbh there’s a lot to say about this friendship, namely considering that this is by far one of my most cherished ones, even if it isn’t yours I’m crying already blegh but I really do mean it. Our first meeting was awkward, and if it isn’t a false memory, being in that one biology class was one of my luckier moments, I think. I recall everyone else picking their partners, and I remember feeling like I got stabbed bc nobody wanted to pair with me :’) but then I saw you also sitting alone like loser n thought the situation was perfect :) I think I remember hearing your very quiet hey/hello n immediately went ‘I wish this girl would speak the fuck up :’)’ but whatever lol n we did that bean sprout punnets square(?) shit n then idk what happened lol I have no memory of 10th grade other than me walking into your GT English class for the AP Lang intro but let’s pretend I do.

11th grade was like,,,,the best year bc I got to see you and hang out in class and secretly watch vlives with you behind our laptops n it makes my heart v warm when I remember us going over when teasers would drop for dreamcatcher’s album n watching the actual fuckibg showcase before we were actually about to take our actual sats :// and I had fun bc of you! you absolutely pissed me off on a number of occasions bc you are a complete smart ass n your one word responses are completely unhelpful sometimes but ily anyways :(

I remember you sitting with me when I completely poured my heart out to a boy I liked in a completely inappropriate situation n I remember your very quiet ‘hmmm heheh oka..y’ but tbh I didn’t really care that much bc I got bored with him lmfao 🤗 I remember you sitting with me in the library while I was doing my health course to both keep me company n skip class, and I remember us watching nct’s cherry bomb vlive n tbh whenever I listen to cherry bomb I think of that moment and it makes me feel happy so thanks for that :’( I remember you sending me pics of johnny n minhyuk n jiu and funny posts and I remember staying up until 1AM last summer crying over mingyu to you lmfao

I remember this year too, and texting and tumblr has taken up most of our conversation spaces other than English, but I think that’s okay bc you operate different. Your scorpio moon and your fake mysteriousness can suck my dick tho open up more dumb bitch I remember our sushi date n then talking outside afterwards n riding in my dads car n you were smushed in the back and I was so happy bc you laughed!!! side note I recall feeling bad that one Halloween bc I wanted to dress up with you too but why did I invite all those people I hate sm rn lmfao why did you let me do that

I’m really really proud of you, and oof crying again can’t see the keyboard you’ve made my life not so terrible these last few years, especially bc of the added stress from home n school have really messed my head up for a long time now. I hope I impacted your life a little too, or eased it a bit at least, and even if we don’t stay friends forever I’d like to thank you for making these memories with me for this long. I hope I get to keep them a little longer.

But if we do stay friends, which I hope we will, then I hope to make many more with you. Our charts are made for friendship >:(

If I don’t say so tomorrow, again: I’m very proud to see you graduate n be successful n shit. I really do mean it. 💖