#dreamflayer rambles

I had a random angst scenario that due Uzi having flesh inside her drone body, she ends up developing a necrotic infection (for those who don’t know a necrotic infection is when severely infected tissue starts to die) after an ignored injury that causes her body to not know how to fix it and it gets so bad that it becomes terminal so she isolates herself but we all know she lets N in even though she doesn’t want to die with him watching (yet she survives because of something who knows i just wanted a happy ending for it lmao)

“N’s a wimp who has no clue what he’s doing!”

…DID WE WATCH THE SAME SHOW.

Realistically N and Uzi had literally no one else but each other, they learned from each other and understand each other

LIKE N HAD A FUCKING PANIC ATTACK AND ALL IT TOOK WAS UZI TAKING HIS HAND TO GROUND HIM TO REALITY

The way they just look at each other in this scene kills me, They were practically calming each other down, Even if Uzi doesn’t show it like N does she’s clearly traumatized in similar ways N was,

Being forced to become something you’re not, then being an ostracized outcast your whole life and being left for dead and being strapped down and tortured,

N is actually more self aware than people get him credit for and he’s optimistic because he’s trying to cope with all the shit he’s seen and went through and even before he got his memory back he was trying his best to be a helpful teammate,

He’s probably also optimistic towards opposing people bc he understands what it feels like to be an outcast, i can see it as an “maybe someone needs to hear something positive” thing

I like to think after years of repression and not processing emotions N might just now be learning how to actually handle them and as someone who’s repressed all her emotions it hits you like a ton of bricks and every emotion builds up and explodes causing an array of outbursts or panic attacks

I fucking love N’s character

How about a gacha series that hasn’t been updated in years

*COUGH* The child who can read minds: Cara’s backstory *COUGH*