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Sarah White by Den-Zell Gillard - insta @denzellg & @sarahwhiteblack.

See more of Den-Zell’s work at  8thwardphotography.com

It’s below zero outside today. 

I want to run from the chill and retreat into myself.

But instead, I'm going to create some heat from within. Pushing through this winter until it melts into the spring.

My heart will stay lifted. My mind will stay engaged. My spirit will stay tight.

xx

I found this picture from last summer (oh summer how i miss you) and I remember how I felt when I saw it. I can hear my voice.. “I don't like the face Im making” “My thighs look funny” “ Is that camel toe?” “Knees look too beat up from falling all the damn time” “My boobs are so small” “ I need to burn those shorts” and “ I wish my booty was thicker”.. All that from one pic.

When I think about the dialogue we have with ourselves on the daily and the amount of judgement we put on our image and then multiply that by the amount of days in the week / month / YEAR / lifeTIME its sad. Its scary. How can we love ourselves when we continually hold such high expectations for the way we need to look? And how can we judge the way we need to look when so much is subconsciously based on fake a$$ images we see on social media? I mean, for real. So many of those photos are corrected and edited to make them look perfect, how can we try to look perfect in real life when there is no perfect?

Get this. The human adult body is made up of 7,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 (7 octillion) atoms. Our bodies are protein creating machines. 1 cell in your body goes through 100,000 chemical reaction in one second. Our bodies are organized energies. We are more energy than we are particle. Why are we focusing on the particle when the atom is 99.9990000000000000% energy? I can't. Nah! We are too deep!

So if we are mainly energy, we must really STAY WOKE and really think about the energy we put into the way we think and speak to ourselves to our hearts. I want to be happy holding all this energy in this skin God gave me. Im trying to train my mind to recondition the vocab that I spit at myself on the daily. Its not easy, but I’m trying... Try with me?