leaving seems like the best option ----- but leaving also feels like the beginning of the END. it took a lot to get her here; she had rejected the idea of attending one of his parties multiple times, and now that she’s here, she feels like it’s a waste to leave, even if she’s miserable. it’s not because of him; it’s because of how crowded it is, how loud it is, and how many people are constantly moving around. she has never truly been alone with theo, and the thought still scares her, knowing how quickly her feelings are developing for him, but right now it feels like the best option. she didn’t mean to, but she’s made her discomfort obvious, subtly moving behind him whenever they talk to someone new, avoiding eye contact with everyone, and not saying anything to anyone but whispers to theo. finally reaching her limit, her hand lightly grabs his elbow, and she leans in towards him. ❝ do you mind if ---- ❞ she starts, clearing her throat. ❝ is there somewhere we can go? somewhere --- i don’t know, quiet? alone. i --- i’m sorry, i just . . . i need a break. just for a minute. ❞