#draxgon

Its been a minute

Little update on me!!

Im going so fucking insane omg

Okay so this isnt gonna be a cutesy update honestly its just gonna be a dumpster fire but i have very recently been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease called Hashimotos and i dont know what to do or how to act or how to react. My case is super severe where my levels are insanely high, like my doctor told me she had never seen levels that high, high. I know that the disease isnt super life threatening on its own but the idea of having something i just have to live with for the rest of my life is so scary to me. Ive dealt with issues in the past, medically. Ive always had joint pain and a sensitivity to gluten and lactose and ive always been sensitive to cold and had hair loss and chronic headaches but i thought that was just “oh everyone deals with that” “thats just how i am” things and youre telling me it absolutely is not?? And its actually a chronic illness??

I think im still in the processing phase because the test and diagnostic just came back this morning confirming it but its scary to me.

I miss sharing makeup and singing to musicals when no one was home but us.

I don’t miss being hurt and having fears that the people who I care about will leave me and staying up until 4 am too talk someone out of hurting themselves.

I dont miss changing the way I spoke, the way I ate, the way I looked for someone.

The world didn’t end when I was 15, thank god

I’m proud of who I am today.

The girl that can clean her room without crying.

The girl that stands up for herself.

The girl that be happy and do things that make her happy.

The girl that follows her passion in art, and singing, and cooking and the girl that has someone to be right beside her through it all.