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Long story: 

there's this boy i like and my best friend started liking him too. he told her he don't like me that way and i accepted it. But they are really close. I've never seen someone that close as 'friends'. They hug every 10 minutes and hold hands and just this things adn they don't know each other mroe than 3 weeks. it hurted me but i just smiled it away. I started cutting because of him and i began to smoke more than i did. I bacome the girl i never wanted to be. 

then one day when i was with them we went at his house and they were talking bout something i wasn't allowed to know. Then i was hurt and was depressed but they haven't told me then. She called me in the evening and told me she's in love with him and he told her that he don't want anything from her and she told him she dont want it too. He believed her. 

Now she's hurt everytime he's with us and treats him like shit and I told her not to be like thi because he'll notice that something isn't alright with her. But I still thing he wants something from her and I want to talk to him about her and i told her this but she's bitching around. I just want to do something good for her. I just want her to be happy even if i get a bit sadder because of them kissing infront of me but i told her taht i'm over him and she believed me. but i cut myself everynight since he told her that he dont like me that way and she dont even know this. But i'm ready to pretend i'm okay if they are together.