#dope runner

I like myself better that way

I love better that way

I find it easier to breathe when I take myself out of my body

I couldn’t be that hard to love

Somehow I talk too much

When Ive spent my life sewing my lips shut

If I never did that where would I be?

How the pain floods on days with no clouds in the sky

One day will it just be me

I live in my fantasy so often that i started to believe I could find what was missing

Was it you ?

I won’t die trying to find it

But I just wish I could taste it

Buy it at the grocery store

Find it on the floor of a train or

Inside the next egg I crack

I still check to see if my heart is still beating,

If my veins are still pulsing

If I could feel how I feel when I’m underwater holding my breath

Looking at how the light comes under like beams from a stolen star trying to find her home

I’d freeze myself there for the ocean to keep me

Call to you in my sleep

Tell me you hear me

Tell me you feel me still

I don’t want you because I’m tired of hurting

But I want you because I’m hurting

Sometimes I think there is no end to the bleeding

My feet are moving, I just need to feel

Throwing my thoughts into the abyss never hurt

I’m a hopeless romantic incapable of loving and being loved properly

Wrap my heart in pretty paper secured with a bow

Gift it to myself on Christmas