#doomchesters

i think the anon is saying that the opposite of right-euos is wrong-euos

oh man ME TOO like this was such a case of writing the fic that I wanted to read! I mean, it was mostly about writing the fic that I thought Michaela might want to read but HEY WE HAVE PRETTY SIMILAR TASTE (for once) (this isn’t fruit so we actually agree)

omg i love you?!! i made the little graphic myself (it’s moonlight dean??) :D and my blog always seems to be blue, it’s just my sort of colour apparently! (need to actually add some things to the drop down tabs lol never mind)

but i also wanna tell you that sometimes this blood turns to poison, sometimes the way i look at the world is ‘too dark’, and sometimes i feel like i would never have the courage to face the words again, that i would never be able to revisit the feeling. sometimes i chastise myself for thinking like this, but it’s hard not to just. hate every word that i write. sometimes it’s so strong i have to punch the wall till it’s red and my knuckles are bruised so i don’t have to deal with my fingers not being able to hold still. sometimes it’s my voice pulling me down and sometimes its others’; the words hurt and they sting. but they also love and they heal.

you ask me a lot about my poetry, and i always end up saying that the only way i’ll ever accept death is bit by bit, day by day, the words engulfing my soul, my very being.