#done!!!!!!

IX: “You may delay, but time will not.” - Benjamin Franklin 

She can stand underneath the wing all day and all night, Carolyn realises, but that won’t change the fact that GERTI is registered for auction tomorrow - that soon, she will be Someone Else’s Jet.

This has been coming for a while, of course. Carolyn shouldn’t be surprised, and she isn’t. Surprise sits higher in the throat - this is a deeper, far more dismal sensation, reaching down through her lungs and all the way to the pit of her stomach. 

I'm autistic and it pisses me off when people refuse to explain things to me when I tell them I don't get it or act like it's still a joke and keep me out of it. that's not fucking nice

I have adhd and because of shit my parents did to me growing up I STILL struggle with thinking I'm just being lazy or selfish when I literally can't do things or need to engage with something I like to be normal (same with a lot of my disability but whatever)

I definitely have some cluster b disorder, it includes a LOT of paranoia and unfounded suspicions about people, and I used to be friends with A FUCKING SOCIAL WORKER who thought I was accusing them of shit when I did things like apologize. sincerely hope that person finds another job or never works again because it makes me fucking shudder to think of anyone with a personality disorder coming through that office. I have so much trauma from that whole situation it's unreal. same person told me I was lying about being bullied by someone btw. literally praying they eventually got a clue. sorry, I'm not over that shit even remotely, I put myself in such an awful little box for them and their assholes

oh and I have osdd-1b and the bullying was over that. you know. btw

I used to have a friend who I said "I hate allistics so much sometimes" to once as venting and they came back with how they hoped I wasn't serious about that and it was pretty messed up if I did

I'm so packed with scars of nasty little things people did to me because I was mentally ill and they treated it like I was doing it on purpose and all I've EVER fucking done is my best even as people refused to explain things to me and then brought to me things I had "done on purpose". I spent so long never ever standing up for myself because I was SO afraid of hurting someone by accident, because of people like that telling me I was bad. I am a fucking human being and I hate you of my own volition, not because of the feral dog I keep leashed in my brain

and I hate allistics so much sometimes