#don't read this garbage

i've had a shit day. lousy writing, exhausted and sick. nothing i write is worth anything. and there are some people in my life who are just so good at making me feel like shit that i'm not sure they're even aware of it. 

I just want one bit of reciprocation.

it's getting harder to be by myself. I just...I dunno...the silence eats me up...Maybe I'm just a shitty person.

I just don’t know what to do man. Like there’s just the raddest girl. And I want so badly to just do things with her. Not like big time dating things, not yet at least. But I just wanna like, watch tv with her, and bring her snacks while she’s at work. I wanna find out her dress size so I can buy her cute stuff. I wanna laugh with her and read to her. I wanna get decimated in video games with her, and I wanna hug her, she’s really fucking good at hugging. I wanna do all this and more but I’m so afraid that I’m gonna fuck everything up, since that’s what I do best. Worst part is that I’m not sure I’ll have the chance to prove any of this anytime soon. It just sucks when thinking about her is becoming an addiction.