There’s a tangle of thoughts and feelings at the bottom of Taerae’s inability to ask for what he wants. It should be uncomplicated and painless, with Matthew, and it often is. However, there’s a hard-set boundary that Taerae still can’t cross, not even in his own mind. Chalk it up to growing up in a religious household, or to realizing he liked men when he was already in his twenties, or to his general over-thinker tendencies. Maybe the origin is in Matthew himself.

Taerae wants Matthew to use his strength on him in bed. He's clueless as to how to make it happen.