#dojero

Finished commission for @dojerodesigns

Heyo, I’m back from vending at Bronycon!

It was definitely an eye-opening experience.

Some of you may know that I’ve been struggling with tendinitis and various other issues for over two years and it has severely damaged my morale and motivation to draw. It’s been so hard to feel like I’m capable of achieving anything as an artist when my body is fighting against me, when everything I do causes me pain. I haven’t believed in myself for a very long time. I have gone to physical therapy, though, and since then I’ve been getting better. It’s hard work, and improvement is slow, but it is real. In the months leading up to Bronycon, I had lots of doubts. I didn’t think I’d be a successful vendor, I didn’t think I’d be able to make enough art or pull my weight within my group of friends. As we each started preparing and ordering our prints, I realized I might not be so bad off. My prints looked good, I had a decent amount on content for my condition, and when we finally got to Baltimore and set up our booth I started feeling excited for myself for the first time in a long while. The convention itself went amazingly. By no means did I sell out and make bank, but I did break even with the help of my friends, and that was more than I’d been hoping for. People actually bought what I had to offer! That gave me a special feeling of pride, something I hope I never forget, because it’s the feeling that tells me I can be a successful artist despite my physical limitations, I can believe in myself.

I wanna give a special thanks to my friends who vended with me. @askdrakomod, @dojero, @kikity1414, and @earthsong9405, you guys are the greatest, and I’m so grateful that you all made it possible for me to have this amazing experience! Especially @askdrakomod and @dojero. You guys are the fucking best and I love you!

Okay, so every year on Valentine’s day I usually do something cheesy and this year’s no different as I want to express my love, not for ones I wish a life with, but love for friends who are there when you most need them.

I’ve had a little bit of a rough year since last Valentine’s Day and my close friend circles aren’t as strong as they used to be, be it because of us drifting apart or just lack of time to hang out as much as we used to.

I really started to feel lonely but then I was welcomed with open arms into another group that were composed by tightly knit friends since years ago and for them to allow me to hang around really has meant a lot to me, so I guess that in short so is all that I want to say is thank you!