#doitkindly

As I mentioned, in my previous 9lives, I was a frequent-rehab-flyer and you can probably imagine some of the other drunks and junkies that I met. And some of them were really good people, just trying to get out of the sideways choices they were making. That’s the thing, though. Sometimes good people get put, or put themselves, in the middle of very sketchy situations. And sometimes they cross paths with people that seem good @ the time but in reality, they are truly evil people - down to the bones. I learned it the hard way - All it takes is one misstep with the wrong crowd to end up going down the wrong path. Keep in mind, even if you go down the wrong path, it doesn’t mean it’s over for good. It just means you gotta find a way out. And if you happen to fight for it - YOU WILL find it. And when you find it - YOU CAN CHANGE it. But that choice is still up to you, GAMER1.

The first friend that I lost (like truly lost, 4ever) died from a herion overdose shortly after high school. He wasn’t even old enough to drink alcohol legally. Crazy story…his addiction was so bad that he left rehab to get high and never made it back. And I promise you, when he made the choice to walk out of that safe place, he wasn’t planning on accidentallykilling himself. And that’s why the drug game isn’t one to fuck around with - you literally have no idea when the devil gets to win. To make things even crazier, I met his rehab counselor a few years later, in rehab, as my roommate, which means her addiction to alcohol came back after she was treating people for addiction. That’s the thing with that specific devil - that game is EVIL. You are literally playing poker with the devil and that little bitch can see through your cards…doesn’t sound very fair huh? 

Plot twist…ready, set…go!

If someone was once a fuck-up, by your own Reader 1 personal definition, how long do they have to pay for their consequences before you starting treating them like a normal part of society? How long do they deserve to be treated as less than? Say someone was once evil, and did a truly evil thing, AND SERVED THEIR TIME, BUT has also since CHANGED...then what?... And I don’t mean “stopped doing bad things as part of their court ordered probation program”. I mean truly - down to the core - changed, and 110% for the better. How long does the world get to frown down on them for? Rhetorically speaking…that is. 

I’m a people watcher by default. I live through watching the world from an outsideR, GAMER2 mode. And I do still find myself passing judgements, by default. But I’m human and I am working to lessen that, as part of my own chance to change. Honestly though, sometimes I find myself wanting to ask people if they notice that they are wearing their internal thoughts all over their face.  To me - that’s why SOCIETY is falling short as a whole. Call yourself out…you looking up or down right now? See - as I sit back and watch others I find myself judging the world we are living in and I don’t find myself asking why it is so dark. I personally feel like I know why - even just in the month or so that I’ve been in a better spot (mentally speaking, that is…still JOB_more_ORless over here).

My belief:

It’s us. It’s all of us. Where’s the help at? And I don’t mean the PROTECTING THE PEOPLE kind of help. I mean the SERVE OTHERS kind of help. We all have flaws. We are all human. And we are all passing the wrong kind of judgements. And it needs to stop. We shouldn’t be making others feel so badly just to me our one-self feel better. 

LOOK - We live in such a fast fucking world these days, that no one slows down to notice anything anymore. Everyone is so busy with just their day to day lives, myself included, that we don’t see the world for what it is. We sit at home, within our own family circles and check off items on our daily honey_2_do lists-of-less-than-nothing accomplishments. And then we look out the window from our 3rd-story-mansion-sized-homes, from the outside PERSPECTIVE.  That’s me speaking figuratively, of course. My way of saying - we are clueless to what happens behind closed doors, yet we feel entitled to look down on others by default.  

Today - if you read_or_hear this - do ONE thing. Realize that you are above no-one, no matter what they look and act like. WE ARE ALL HUMAN. And we can all have super-powers if we want. We just gotta work together to get there. Think Toy Story gone PJ Masks.