#doing this again.

Where does it end? A constant spiral of should I, would I, could I? Who am I? What's going on?

BUT

Who are you trying to kid? You know what this is, why it's there. It's been apart of you for so long that it was normalized. A laugh means something else and a smile should never be trusted. Friendship, bonds, and family are all tied to something untrustworthy and now you feel alone.

NOW!!

You're lying to cover your ass, lying to hide behind such a fragile ego that any step you make crumbles you into pieces, just laying there in a pile of your own disgusting self-pitying crap that your dizzy from your own creates drama and problem. Do you handle it like an adult? No. Because you're

Emotionally immature

So you ask other people to do life for you because everything is TOOOOOOO HAAAAAAAAARD, and why wouldn't it be? You made this yourself. Quit making it everyone's problem when you put yourself in the snake pit, now you're screaming for help and then swatting the person helping you away because what are they doing, stop helping me I don't want that.

All it takes is ONE kind gesture, ONE general regard for another person, and ONE act of giving the other something to hold onto.

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