#dnt read

i’m really, really sad. idk what to do. i honestly don’t know how i used to cope with this. i haven’t had a depressive episode in years and i’m honestly feeling totally lost. for the first time i can remember i don’t even have the motivation to study. i feel so sad and so guilty. 

why am i such a fucking joke to my friends like none of them even really give a shit about me ? like i get it im shit but ... i deserve so much more and none of them even interact w me unless theyre obligated to 

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anyway i’m the most disgusting creature on this planet and no one wants to have any physical contact with me in any way and i’m so sorry to those who still feel like they’re obligated to be nice to/touch me i’m actively repulsive and i deserve 2 die