#dniuc

DNI status wordmojis for my new wordmoji server.

No spoons for this I will explain later — no spoons for this we will explain later

No emoji for this I will explain later — no emoji for this we will explain later

I need my comfort item — I need my comfort person

Do not interact unless close — do not interact unless very close

Can someone tell me what happened?

Ask — dniuc (do not interact unless close)

Call — Rsd reaction (rejection sensitive dysphoria)

Rsd panic — empty emotions

Empathy dry — low empathy

Mikey — frank

High asf selective replies - high as fuck selective replies — on cloud 0 selective replies

High asf dni - high as fuck do not interact — on cloud nine dni - on cloud 9 do not interact

High asf dniuc - high as fuck do not interact unless close — on cloud 9 dniuc - on cloud 9 do not interact unless close

High asf iwc - high as fuck interact with care/caution/consent — on cloud 9 iwc - on cloud 9 interact with care/caution/consent

DNIUC Nightmare — DNIUC Nightmares

DNIUC Night Terror — DNIUC Night Terrors

emotional dissociation mixed with suicidal ideation is an interesting combo imo bc on one hand, yeah, i dont feel anything rn. on the other hand, im casually thinking about killing myself.

i can feel physical sensations. like my bed, for example, is extremely uncomfortable right now. the blankets are also helping me keep warm. pretty neat. yeah. still thinking about dying.

why, probably because i feel extremely detached from everything (dpdr) and i know i will never truly feel like im part of this world. so wouldn't it just be convenient to fall asleep and never wake up in this reality that feels more virtual than real. everything feels fake.

existence is inconvenient. therefore i want to end it. everything, all of it. myself, the body, the mind.

will i actually go through with it? no. these are just passive thoughts we deal with almost every day. if i was actually going to go through with it, i wouldve done so a long time ago.

still, uhm. im not actually sure why im talking about this. i guesss i just feel too awkward to talk to anybody about it directly,, but i still want a space to say something, you know. i guess.